Oh My Goodness So Much To Tell!!
Ok so first of all any advice on this would be greatly appreciated.
I am such a horrible person!! Oye vey!! How in the world do I get myself into these kinds of situations?!?! Ok so I guess it pretty much started over break. Cause I ended up talking to James like almost everyday, sometimes multiple times. And then as things ended up I would up driving back to Gunni with him because my flight got canceled. (That is the whole adventure about trying to get back here but that still needs to wait because I don't have the time) Anyway so we were driving back and there were a few times that we just kinda ended up holding hands. Ok yeah no big deal to anyone else but still. But the thing is that I got that feeling (its a little bit funny...this feeling insideeee.....oops sorry we're being serious here) when you get when something happenes with someone you like, ya know? I dunno if I like him though. Yes, we are back to square one! I just keep thinking about the movie When Harry Met Sally. And how they were good friends for so long and then they just sorta figured out that they liked each other or whatever. It's just that there are so many things wrong with us being together but there are also a lot of good things, things that I like in a guy. So I'm just super confused and don't know what to do!! Argh.
So nothing more than that happened driving back. But then tonight we were in his room, just doing the whole cuddling thing. And it was nice. Because there are just some things he totally know how to do, what to say, that sorta thing. And I could tell that he totally wanted to kiss me. I mean he has for a while, but I think I was just a lot more open tonight, I guess you could say. And well did he you ask? Well he kinda tried. I didn't really give him the chance. Ok yes, he did. But I kinda was being all spazastic and whateverness. But half of me says that I should let him but the other half is like NO! it would never work. So misa just muy confuzled!! But there is always that little voice saying it is just a Jeremy situation all over again and I really don't want that at all. Seriously he's gonna hate me soon because I haven't let him do anything. It's only the hugs and cuddlingness. So I hate to say this but maybe Harry was right...guys and girls can't be friends without the sex issue getting in the way...more later, maybe I need to sleep on it a bit...
I am such a horrible person!! Oye vey!! How in the world do I get myself into these kinds of situations?!?! Ok so I guess it pretty much started over break. Cause I ended up talking to James like almost everyday, sometimes multiple times. And then as things ended up I would up driving back to Gunni with him because my flight got canceled. (That is the whole adventure about trying to get back here but that still needs to wait because I don't have the time) Anyway so we were driving back and there were a few times that we just kinda ended up holding hands. Ok yeah no big deal to anyone else but still. But the thing is that I got that feeling (its a little bit funny...this feeling insideeee.....oops sorry we're being serious here) when you get when something happenes with someone you like, ya know? I dunno if I like him though. Yes, we are back to square one! I just keep thinking about the movie When Harry Met Sally. And how they were good friends for so long and then they just sorta figured out that they liked each other or whatever. It's just that there are so many things wrong with us being together but there are also a lot of good things, things that I like in a guy. So I'm just super confused and don't know what to do!! Argh.
So nothing more than that happened driving back. But then tonight we were in his room, just doing the whole cuddling thing. And it was nice. Because there are just some things he totally know how to do, what to say, that sorta thing. And I could tell that he totally wanted to kiss me. I mean he has for a while, but I think I was just a lot more open tonight, I guess you could say. And well did he you ask? Well he kinda tried. I didn't really give him the chance. Ok yes, he did. But I kinda was being all spazastic and whateverness. But half of me says that I should let him but the other half is like NO! it would never work. So misa just muy confuzled!! But there is always that little voice saying it is just a Jeremy situation all over again and I really don't want that at all. Seriously he's gonna hate me soon because I haven't let him do anything. It's only the hugs and cuddlingness. So I hate to say this but maybe Harry was right...guys and girls can't be friends without the sex issue getting in the way...more later, maybe I need to sleep on it a bit...