This is me...
Had an emotionally turbulant past few days. I know, i know...you're all going to say "wtf else is new Blake." But gosh darnt it, i feel like i'm really getting somewhere in my life this time. I no longer feel like a mouse trapped on a wheel, but like a free range chicken (despite the fact that those chickens are anything but roaming around totally free. you get the idea).
I got a lot of things cleared in me head and have made some decisions about me life.
1) I have never been completely alone without dating, hoping, shopping around or something for a person from the opposite sex to be in my life. That ended as of wednesday night. I remember when i was very close to being totally on my own, and it was a great time. I want that again.
2) I was talking to Tabby and we both had an epiphany at the same time where we realized that we don't make ourselves insecure, but its the people that care about us than hurt us that make us insecure. Solution: Be alone for a while until i am 100% that even if one more romantic interest in my life calls me names, lies to me, cheats on me, acts like he doesn't care about me...in the end i won't blame me for it and though i will cry will end a better person for learning another life lesson. and move on.
3) Just when you think someone is a good person, then try to hurt you and others. I don't undestand people a lot of times. I can't grasp the idea of caring about someone and hurting them anyways. I might be mad and say some things to let them know how bad they hurt me but i don't hurt people. it solves nothing and isn't worth the pain of hurting someone you care aout even a little.
My mom is here ot pick me up to go home. I need some R&R away from college this weekend. I plan on showing my dad my nose ring...he will freak out for a day and then calm down...hopefully. Eh, better it gets done now then thanksgiving. Herter thanksgiving someone always have some family issues in it. I do not want ot be the cause of this year's troubles. I will finish posting at home tonight....
I got a lot of things cleared in me head and have made some decisions about me life.
1) I have never been completely alone without dating, hoping, shopping around or something for a person from the opposite sex to be in my life. That ended as of wednesday night. I remember when i was very close to being totally on my own, and it was a great time. I want that again.
2) I was talking to Tabby and we both had an epiphany at the same time where we realized that we don't make ourselves insecure, but its the people that care about us than hurt us that make us insecure. Solution: Be alone for a while until i am 100% that even if one more romantic interest in my life calls me names, lies to me, cheats on me, acts like he doesn't care about me...in the end i won't blame me for it and though i will cry will end a better person for learning another life lesson. and move on.
3) Just when you think someone is a good person, then try to hurt you and others. I don't undestand people a lot of times. I can't grasp the idea of caring about someone and hurting them anyways. I might be mad and say some things to let them know how bad they hurt me but i don't hurt people. it solves nothing and isn't worth the pain of hurting someone you care aout even a little.
My mom is here ot pick me up to go home. I need some R&R away from college this weekend. I plan on showing my dad my nose ring...he will freak out for a day and then calm down...hopefully. Eh, better it gets done now then thanksgiving. Herter thanksgiving someone always have some family issues in it. I do not want ot be the cause of this year's troubles. I will finish posting at home tonight....