nothings true and nothings right.....so let me be alone tonight cuz you can't change the way i am
It'd be a lot easier to celebrate in the victory with the rest of campus if i hadn't seen one of my friends on the ground looking like a spider that had just been smacked with a newspaper. Apparently he's okay, but....still. Makes me wonder if i have what it takes to be a First Responder if i can't even see someone i know hurt without wanting to cry. This weekend was kind of a necessary failure.
Blew a lot of money and drank a lot on saturday, as well as other shit that we will not go into. Thats the way i tend to deal with break ups. When i went to the TKE house for the BBQ they were suppose to have i heard Sheryl Crow's "Strong Enough To Be My Man." I haven't heard that song on the radio or played by anyone else for like 5 years. Thats my song i listen to when someone has broken my heart, and so to hear it out in public and not alone in my room with tears my eyes was just a bit overwhelming, and i almost wanted to cry right then and there infront of the guys. Good thing Brian and Rob were there to give me a hug when i showed up. They probably don't know how much that ment to me.
Got an interesting call saturday night from John. Too bad i was a little too drunk to fully handle the situation. In fact, John since 10 days ago has been nothing but "interesting".
Cold Hard Truths :
~I miss him more then anything, but this yo-yoing is making me want to just run from him cuz it reminds too much of ross and kyle.
~The reason why i'm making myself get over him, slowly but surely, and the reason why he might be missing me is because he makes the daily choice to not want me back bad enough to say something.
~If its one thing i've learned, its that in the end everything will be okay. So if its not okay, then its not the end. Thats okay, i always have sanity, love, memory, and time to spare.
Blew a lot of money and drank a lot on saturday, as well as other shit that we will not go into. Thats the way i tend to deal with break ups. When i went to the TKE house for the BBQ they were suppose to have i heard Sheryl Crow's "Strong Enough To Be My Man." I haven't heard that song on the radio or played by anyone else for like 5 years. Thats my song i listen to when someone has broken my heart, and so to hear it out in public and not alone in my room with tears my eyes was just a bit overwhelming, and i almost wanted to cry right then and there infront of the guys. Good thing Brian and Rob were there to give me a hug when i showed up. They probably don't know how much that ment to me.
Got an interesting call saturday night from John. Too bad i was a little too drunk to fully handle the situation. In fact, John since 10 days ago has been nothing but "interesting".
Cold Hard Truths :
~I miss him more then anything, but this yo-yoing is making me want to just run from him cuz it reminds too much of ross and kyle.
~The reason why i'm making myself get over him, slowly but surely, and the reason why he might be missing me is because he makes the daily choice to not want me back bad enough to say something.
~If its one thing i've learned, its that in the end everything will be okay. So if its not okay, then its not the end. Thats okay, i always have sanity, love, memory, and time to spare.