this is more for me to get out and for HIM to read

[ez_aily_amused]

i regret every time i smiled when i saw u were on, every time i called you to see what you were doing, and i regret every time u talked to me and smiled because it let me know you cared... and know i know its all a lie..... and everytime i think a bout you i miss you more and more i regret the first time i met you at that stupid race.... i miss the way when i went to them you would just give me that look or hold me just the right way, or at the fair when u were fine with everything, when life was good....sometimes i wish i never met you because then i could go to sleep at night, not knowing that someone like you was out there i miss the smile that i had when i was with you.... the one that i no longer have.....

this is my last entry..... my emotions get the best of me... and he never answers so im left in the dark... so im done i quit.