It's getting very hard to stay.

[eyezthatcantsee]

Alive. Conciouss..intune with reality. Feeling like im speeding, the cops are behind me and I can't seem to find the break because no one ever put it in my car...I don't know...I guess I'm just weirded out like that...then people tell me I'm changing...or going to change....that I'm losing grasp of something I hold dear to my heart...but I don't know what I can do...I can stop it...I think...I hope...maybe..ugh...I get so lost in all of this. I dont know what to do anymore...

I'm writing more music...I find inspiration in my misery oddly enough...maybe I write so many songs because there is enough misery to go around...I dunno...I got people that care..but I feel like I'm fading away...ugh..my head fucking hurts..

::takes a few advil.::

Meh...that should kick in later...I dunno...but I need to get my shit together...maybe I can...hopefully....