May 05, 2007 16:33
the night was fun, aside from what drama went on.
Gotta love life though. Always so suprising!
Hrmm. Ya know. I hate games. So I don't play them anymore. Yeah. :)
Life happens. So I deal with it. Other people have things going on and though i try to be there for them, sometimes i cant. Sometimes they don't want you there.
And that's ok.
Someone told me a long time ago "You can't save everyone" and they were right, whether i wanted to accept that then or not.
I accept that now.
but I don't mind losing if I go down swinging. I don't mind trying to save everyone, regardless if i can or cant.
Its worth it to be there for someone.
"Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend..somewhere along in the bitterness and I...would have stayed up...with you all night...had I known...how to save a life."
On another note:
Feelings for people and people with feelings are very complicated things.
Indecisiveness is probably the worst enemy of anyone in one of those positions...
and I don't deal with indecsiveness anymore.
Which is a step up.
I'm not a god. Sometimes, I'm not sure if I'm even a man.
but I know that I'm vindicated and sure of the things I do.
I love my life and my friends and there for those who need me there.
and I know that indecisiveness lies in many people.
Just not in me.