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got to drink last night..
wasn't enough to buzz me..
kind of disappointed...
drank half alone..half with summer. It was nice. we talked. We watched batman...
good time.
then i got to go to sleep and dream about amber again.
WHY, huh? WHY THE FUCK DOES IT ALWAYS COME BACK TO THAT?! I dream we're talking in my bed then she fucking EVAPORATES. WHY IS MY HEAD DOING TO THIS TO ME?! IF NOT ME, THEN WHO'S DOING IT?! WHY THE FUCK DO I HAVE TO SUFFER EVERY FUCKING NIGHT HUH?
I'm SICK of this shit.
I just wanna forget and go numb some days...
I just wanna let it all go...
the best thing in my life and she doesnt even wanna speak to me.
how do you think that fucking feels huh?
THE PEOPLE I CARE ABOUT THE MOST ALWAYS LEAVE ME. ALWAYS.
I HATE this shit....
I just wish She gave a shit..
that it mattered...
That I wouldn't have to feel this anymore....
I just wanna forget...
I wanna be numb...
I wanna sleep without dreams....
wasn't enough to buzz me..
kind of disappointed...
drank half alone..half with summer. It was nice. we talked. We watched batman...
good time.
then i got to go to sleep and dream about amber again.
WHY, huh? WHY THE FUCK DOES IT ALWAYS COME BACK TO THAT?! I dream we're talking in my bed then she fucking EVAPORATES. WHY IS MY HEAD DOING TO THIS TO ME?! IF NOT ME, THEN WHO'S DOING IT?! WHY THE FUCK DO I HAVE TO SUFFER EVERY FUCKING NIGHT HUH?
I'm SICK of this shit.
I just wanna forget and go numb some days...
I just wanna let it all go...
the best thing in my life and she doesnt even wanna speak to me.
how do you think that fucking feels huh?
THE PEOPLE I CARE ABOUT THE MOST ALWAYS LEAVE ME. ALWAYS.
I HATE this shit....
I just wish She gave a shit..
that it mattered...
That I wouldn't have to feel this anymore....
I just wanna forget...
I wanna be numb...
I wanna sleep without dreams....