Try try try....
Well....It seems I have the nasty habit of continuously just saying the wrong things, feeling like an asshole, and I end up looking and sounding...survey says...Like an asshole. I'm on the phone with her....and I love talking to her...about anything...but I seem to just continuously take wrong turns and I end crashing, head first, into alot of things I could have avoided. Why is it, no matter how hard I try, I can't be right for her? It's like no matter what I do, I will never be the man she needs or wants.... It makes me feel like I dont even belong in the position I am in right now...and I want so much just to be right for her...and do right by her...and let her know how much I love her....and still yet....I cannot win. No matter what I do, how hard I fight....I'm still just inadequate...or at least thats how I feel....I just wish she could know how I feel about her...and what she does to me just by being near me...Maybe I could truly show her.....but its hard to be there if she wont let me be there....Its hard dealing with emotional distance...I can't just stand by and let her keep feeling this way....feeling bad....and not be able to do something about it. I wish I could just know what she feels so I could be there for her the way I wish I could...
You know me though.....I never give up....If at first I dont succeed...try, try, try again....I will try with every breath in my body...and then I will go further...I just...I just wanna be able to be there for her...and love her...the way she deserves...because she only deserves the best in my heart...it's just hard trying to be the best..
You know me though.....I never give up....If at first I dont succeed...try, try, try again....I will try with every breath in my body...and then I will go further...I just...I just wanna be able to be there for her...and love her...the way she deserves...because she only deserves the best in my heart...it's just hard trying to be the best..