Not Everything is made to be broken...

[eyezthatcantsee]

Heh. Kind of a weird title I guess. Just listening to "Iris" for the billionth time and figured it's not half bad of a song. Anyway...erm..what can I say on here really? Bit of an odd day. A rough day at best. Not sure...Hrmm. I Dunno...seems like a lot rides against me at times and i cant seem to please people but I'm still trying arent I? Yeah..I'm still trying. I need some sense of assurance that I can come through. That I can make things alright. That everything WILL BE alright. I need that...but I can't seem to get it just yet. Hrmm..I also would like some pills but that's not very productive. I need a nap is what I need. I'm actually going to go to sleep for a change soon. Heh. Hrmm...I'm feeling very alone...at least at this point, i mean. I'm erm....tired i guess.

I'm tired of sleeping alone. I'm tired of sleeping in my bed...alone. I always feel alone but it sucks when you have nothing but voices to keep you company in a cold bed that seems so empty even when I lay it...I feel...alone.

I dunno..

I'm always so fucking depressing. I just want to be positive for a change but I just inflict bad days on my girlfriend and more bullshit...

I'm doing my best.

Help me.

I love you amber.

More then you will ever know.