Everyone knows Im in over my head.
Well of course everyone does. So...i see amber's livejournal and i see that her feelings are what's "Holding her back". I dont know how to take that...whether it's a bad thing..or a good thing....I dunno. I'm not sure if holding someone back is ever good...I dunno. Maybe I'm not good for her life but I'm good for her heart...heh..it's kinda confusing. It's like...I dunno...the way she put that makes me feel like I'm stopping her from being the best she can be as a person....like I'll never be able to bring her to that point...but then I look at it as...if she can't live without me maybe I'm doing something right? I dunno..I could look at it as I'm just keeping her from living her life..
but is it wrong to want to be with someone like I want to be with her? I wanna marry this girl...I want her to have my kids.. (lol amber will laugh at the order thats in.)...I want her to be my everything...heh..even though she's already my everything. But SHHHH! don't let her know that. :O
Hrm...I dunno. It's all really confusing...I think better..well at least more positive..when I'm around her so I'm not jumping to any conclusions....
but is it wrong to want to be with someone like I want to be with her? I wanna marry this girl...I want her to have my kids.. (lol amber will laugh at the order thats in.)...I want her to be my everything...heh..even though she's already my everything. But SHHHH! don't let her know that. :O
Hrm...I dunno. It's all really confusing...I think better..well at least more positive..when I'm around her so I'm not jumping to any conclusions....