Nov 23, 2005 18:30
Quite a few times in the last few years I have heard myself say "If I only had one more day...what I wouldn't give for one more day..." This can be for someone or something that has left your life...or even moreso, one that has left this earth.
One day I found myself saying it a lot. I was full of regrets for everything in my life that was gone, the things I wish I had said and didn't take the chance, the things I wish I hadn't said and did. The days with beloved eyes that would never meet mine again due to death and the like. Then I thought "It is too late for these things...I will never have one more day. Those days are gone...I have used all the days I was given...and for better or worse, I have no more time." After a moment of sad realization of the truth of these words, I looked around. I stopped and looked at my life...and realized I had so many more "just one more days" all around me, everywhere I looked, more than I could name.
I started looking at all the many different things I could have one more day with. The people and creatures that love me and vice versa, the senses I have, the ability to walk, to sing, to think, to create beautiful things. Suddenly, I began to stop feeling cursed and began feeling very, very lucky. I had about a million more second chances with everything that was still mine to have.
This Thanksgiving, if you are feeling down on life, feeling unfortunate, feeling like Life has nothing for you, try looking at everything in your life with the perspective of "being lucky for having one more day." Even if your social and/or love life leaves something to be desired, there is always something. If you can see, what if you woke tomorrow and couldn't? What would you have wished to take more time to appreciate? If you can walk, what if you woke up tomorrow paralyzed? Why not take that hike today while you still can? Even if your mom/dad/aunt/uncle/brother/sister, etc. really annoys you and pisses you off at the Thanksgiving table...what if they aren't there next year to share it with? Kind of puts a new spin on it, doesn't it?
*hugs* and Happy Thanksgiving! :)
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