You Say You've Got You're Old Ties, Well I've Got Mine.
Hey. I know it's been awhile. These last weeks have been great. My party was fxcking amazing. I want to thank EVERYONE who came. I love you guys.
And it's okay, all of you who couldn't make it. Promise.
It was amazing, you guys likeWOAH. And if I do say so myself, I looked breath-taking. hahaha. I hung out with Estefan, Marcel, Andrew and my baby<3 the days afterward. And that was awesomely awesome. We're all going to move in together and race elevators. =)
Yesterday Nes had a bad day and I was sad. But I made it better so I was happy. =)
Me and him are great and I love him muchly.
But me and Mauricio, well I'm not so sure anymore. Monday night we got into a pretty big fight. I was confronting him about why he seemed like he was acting distant and he answered, quite simply that maybe we should just be friends, and not bestfriends. 'Cause he doesn't want to get to close to me. I was like "WTF"...'Cause I mean, he knows how much his friendship means to me, and I thought it meant more to him, too, you know? But now I just dont know. I actually started crying. I mean, I've only been this close to one person, and that was Michael and I lost him and it really sucked. And now I'm going to lose Mauricio. I mean, WTH...he's moving to ARGENTINA in four months, and NOW our friendship wants to fall apart? I tried to call him like twenty minutes ago to tell him I saw Scott's sister at my school today, so that means Scott now goes to my school (kill me now),but Nanette picked up and said he was at the movies with Caroline. I mean, I dont care, but I do. It just feels like I'm losing him. Like we're really distant now. After I hung up on him when he said he didnt think we should be bestfriends, he called me back crying about how he didn't mean for it to sound like that. And I just kinda brushed it off and we hung up on a 'good' note. But to me, it still stung. I thought we were like..I don't know. Just really close. But I guess not. I dont get how he can just say something like that. He's been there with me through all those tears I've shed for Nes and through all our happy moments. We've had so many memories, of us just talking, his crushes, stuff like that. And now it just seems like all that was nothing. I'm not sure what to think. Urg. It just really sucks. I can't really say what I'm really feeling 'cause I dont know even truly know...But this...sucks.
Anyway, interems come out tomorrow. Scary.
I cut my hair shorter. Orgasmic.
My mind is like overflowing with thoughts right now. Confusing.
I'm gonna go, 'cause my stomach is being mutilated by cramps. Ow.
Later.
And it's okay, all of you who couldn't make it. Promise.
It was amazing, you guys likeWOAH. And if I do say so myself, I looked breath-taking. hahaha. I hung out with Estefan, Marcel, Andrew and my baby<3 the days afterward. And that was awesomely awesome. We're all going to move in together and race elevators. =)
Yesterday Nes had a bad day and I was sad. But I made it better so I was happy. =)
Me and him are great and I love him muchly.
But me and Mauricio, well I'm not so sure anymore. Monday night we got into a pretty big fight. I was confronting him about why he seemed like he was acting distant and he answered, quite simply that maybe we should just be friends, and not bestfriends. 'Cause he doesn't want to get to close to me. I was like "WTF"...'Cause I mean, he knows how much his friendship means to me, and I thought it meant more to him, too, you know? But now I just dont know. I actually started crying. I mean, I've only been this close to one person, and that was Michael and I lost him and it really sucked. And now I'm going to lose Mauricio. I mean, WTH...he's moving to ARGENTINA in four months, and NOW our friendship wants to fall apart? I tried to call him like twenty minutes ago to tell him I saw Scott's sister at my school today, so that means Scott now goes to my school (kill me now),but Nanette picked up and said he was at the movies with Caroline. I mean, I dont care, but I do. It just feels like I'm losing him. Like we're really distant now. After I hung up on him when he said he didnt think we should be bestfriends, he called me back crying about how he didn't mean for it to sound like that. And I just kinda brushed it off and we hung up on a 'good' note. But to me, it still stung. I thought we were like..I don't know. Just really close. But I guess not. I dont get how he can just say something like that. He's been there with me through all those tears I've shed for Nes and through all our happy moments. We've had so many memories, of us just talking, his crushes, stuff like that. And now it just seems like all that was nothing. I'm not sure what to think. Urg. It just really sucks. I can't really say what I'm really feeling 'cause I dont know even truly know...But this...sucks.
Anyway, interems come out tomorrow. Scary.
I cut my hair shorter. Orgasmic.
My mind is like overflowing with thoughts right now. Confusing.
I'm gonna go, 'cause my stomach is being mutilated by cramps. Ow.
Later.