Nights Like This Are Never Ending, I Tried So Hard To Make This Perfect...
Soo...These last four days have been the worst of my life. I can only thank God that I still have Nes.
"Sorry I never was everything you've ever dreamed."
I don't know. Alot of personal crap has happened. It was horrible. Me and Nes got into the biggest fight we've ever had. Last night I cried more than I ever have. And it was so hard to talk to Nes about it all because I was crying so hard. I felt horrible. When I woke up this morning, I can honestly say I felt dead. There was absolutely no emotion. Except when I saw Nes, I was a little happier, and yet, I had to stop myself from crying.
It really wasn't that big of a deal, but it was to us, I suppose. We're fixing it though. Slowly but surely.
I'm trying. Really hard. But sometimes I feel like I have to choose between my best-friend and my boyfriend...and I hate that feeling.
I love Nes more than anything.
And I've never been closer to anyone in my life like I am with Mauricio.
But Nes makes me feel better about it. So it's okay.
I just...last night...My heart plummeted to the bottom of my stomach, and I havn't felt that feeling in the longest time. I don't know what I'd do if I lost Nes.
And I couldn't even talk to Mauricio about it completely. I told him what happened, but this is just something that stays between us.
Well. I'm going to go. Nes is calling me at nine.
"I love you. Never doubt that."--I'm really trying. I love you, Nes.
I love him more than he could EVER understand.
Forever his///Forever Love
"Sorry I never was everything you've ever dreamed."
I don't know. Alot of personal crap has happened. It was horrible. Me and Nes got into the biggest fight we've ever had. Last night I cried more than I ever have. And it was so hard to talk to Nes about it all because I was crying so hard. I felt horrible. When I woke up this morning, I can honestly say I felt dead. There was absolutely no emotion. Except when I saw Nes, I was a little happier, and yet, I had to stop myself from crying.
It really wasn't that big of a deal, but it was to us, I suppose. We're fixing it though. Slowly but surely.
I'm trying. Really hard. But sometimes I feel like I have to choose between my best-friend and my boyfriend...and I hate that feeling.
I love Nes more than anything.
And I've never been closer to anyone in my life like I am with Mauricio.
But Nes makes me feel better about it. So it's okay.
I just...last night...My heart plummeted to the bottom of my stomach, and I havn't felt that feeling in the longest time. I don't know what I'd do if I lost Nes.
And I couldn't even talk to Mauricio about it completely. I told him what happened, but this is just something that stays between us.
Well. I'm going to go. Nes is calling me at nine.
"I love you. Never doubt that."--I'm really trying. I love you, Nes.
I love him more than he could EVER understand.
Forever his///Forever Love