Is there a shrink in the house?
Ok yeah I suck. I haven't been here in a while. I don't know where to begin cathing up. I have been going through a lot of changes and judt trying to function and get through them. I have moved into my guest room until I could move out. We are filing for divorce. It is done....... or so I thought....
I feel like I am betraying his confidence by posting this but I need advice.
This is my email... I am stunned
I just wanted to let you know that I truly appreciate you taking the time to answer my questions tonight.Even though most of the answers were not what I wanted to hear I appreciate you being completely honest with me. I wish there was some way for me to be able to make you love me as a husband ,but I know I can not . I so want to say just stay here and hope that some day you do but really think that is not what you want. I sorta think I would rather have you here and you have your guard up than me not have you at all.It just seems a though you have your mind made up that no matter what I do you will never let me have the privilege of being totally loved by you again and that is something that I am not sure I can live with.It is like it hurts me beyond anything I can describe to know I have lost you but on the other hand it hurts so much when I look at you and know that you are having to force yourself to try to love me and that it will never change.It is so hard for me to see which hurt is the worst. I would do anything in the world to just win the favor of your heart just one more time but really just do not know anything else to do.If it would save us I would go to that marriage counselor that I have always swore I would not go to,I would do anything you asked of me,but it seems as though it is a little to late for me to do anything. I truly hope that somehow someday you find some little place in your heart to give me another chance. I really do believe if you do you will not be sorry. I am truly sorry for all the hurt i have caused you through the years. I know I have caused you many heartaches with my idiotic behavior and I am really sorry. I guess I really did not know how lucky I really was to have someone love me like you once did until I lost it. I wish so badly that I would have realized what I had before it was too late. Anyway I do and always will love you and hope someday to get the chance to prove it to you but if I do not ,thank you so much for standing by me and giving me the million chances that you did .
What to do.... what to do?
I feel like I am betraying his confidence by posting this but I need advice.
This is my email... I am stunned
I just wanted to let you know that I truly appreciate you taking the time to answer my questions tonight.Even though most of the answers were not what I wanted to hear I appreciate you being completely honest with me. I wish there was some way for me to be able to make you love me as a husband ,but I know I can not . I so want to say just stay here and hope that some day you do but really think that is not what you want. I sorta think I would rather have you here and you have your guard up than me not have you at all.It just seems a though you have your mind made up that no matter what I do you will never let me have the privilege of being totally loved by you again and that is something that I am not sure I can live with.It is like it hurts me beyond anything I can describe to know I have lost you but on the other hand it hurts so much when I look at you and know that you are having to force yourself to try to love me and that it will never change.It is so hard for me to see which hurt is the worst. I would do anything in the world to just win the favor of your heart just one more time but really just do not know anything else to do.If it would save us I would go to that marriage counselor that I have always swore I would not go to,I would do anything you asked of me,but it seems as though it is a little to late for me to do anything. I truly hope that somehow someday you find some little place in your heart to give me another chance. I really do believe if you do you will not be sorry. I am truly sorry for all the hurt i have caused you through the years. I know I have caused you many heartaches with my idiotic behavior and I am really sorry. I guess I really did not know how lucky I really was to have someone love me like you once did until I lost it. I wish so badly that I would have realized what I had before it was too late. Anyway I do and always will love you and hope someday to get the chance to prove it to you but if I do not ,thank you so much for standing by me and giving me the million chances that you did .
What to do.... what to do?