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burning all bridges.
i mean i wish i have got a bigger heart.but you've really pushed me too far this time round and i don't want to waste anymore tears on you.waste of my time, waste of my effort, waste of my tears, waste of my emotions. this just leads over and over to nowhere. and you always have to make me the bigger person out of us - to always do the right thing here.writing you that really long email to explain why i'm deciding to cut off contact with you when you know, i could have (just like some people who have done so to me in the past) blocked you, declined your calls and not reply any of your texts. i decided that fine - i don't know why i'm always so weak towards to (damn it ade) - to write a proper email while crying (again.this is getting so tiring) to explain why we are never going to talk or see each other again.and that will be the last thing im ever doing for you.
love is tiring i swear i wish to be free of all these i think im too sentimental for this world and this life.reckon im too nice to you after things ended and you have to choose the most opportune times to come and say stuff like that to me.like right before my tests or my major research report (yearlong project worth 2 modules + so much late nights+ sacrifices). really w.o.w. swearing never felt so good (though i wish i had been more creative in my choice of words but anyhow.) I JUST WANT TO BE A CAT OKAY. i don't belong to anyone and no one belongs to me but that's fine i'll live in my own world, eat fish, play with interesting things and meow.possibly stalk some musicians idk...make sure i can mew in tune to songs.but that's enough for me.to subsist.
i mean i wish i have got a bigger heart.but you've really pushed me too far this time round and i don't want to waste anymore tears on you.waste of my time, waste of my effort, waste of my tears, waste of my emotions. this just leads over and over to nowhere. and you always have to make me the bigger person out of us - to always do the right thing here.writing you that really long email to explain why i'm deciding to cut off contact with you when you know, i could have (just like some people who have done so to me in the past) blocked you, declined your calls and not reply any of your texts. i decided that fine - i don't know why i'm always so weak towards to (damn it ade) - to write a proper email while crying (again.this is getting so tiring) to explain why we are never going to talk or see each other again.and that will be the last thing im ever doing for you.
love is tiring i swear i wish to be free of all these i think im too sentimental for this world and this life.reckon im too nice to you after things ended and you have to choose the most opportune times to come and say stuff like that to me.like right before my tests or my major research report (yearlong project worth 2 modules + so much late nights+ sacrifices). really w.o.w. swearing never felt so good (though i wish i had been more creative in my choice of words but anyhow.) I JUST WANT TO BE A CAT OKAY. i don't belong to anyone and no one belongs to me but that's fine i'll live in my own world, eat fish, play with interesting things and meow.possibly stalk some musicians idk...make sure i can mew in tune to songs.but that's enough for me.to subsist.