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Oct 20, 2011 00:25

When you think about it, there is no journey of sincerity that a human being can take in life without having their heart broken. And there's no love affair you can follow, without that imaginary organ being rent asunder at one time or another. And there's no marriage, no matter how happy it is, that won't leave you helpless and wanting at times, and leaving you literally with a broken heart.

Not only that, there is no work you can follow without having your heart broken. If you are sincere about your vocation, you will get to thresholds where you will not know how to proceed, and where you will forget yourself, and where you will start to imprison yourself with the very endeavor that was first a doorway to freedom.

And then, in that third marriage with the self, a really sincere examination of the old interior substrate should, if you are sincere, lead to existential disappointment. And, if you don't become disappointed in yourself, you're not trying.

So, it's interesting to think that there is actually no path a human being can take with sincerity, with real courage, that doesn't lead to heartbreak. But it's astonishing how much human beings actually spend an enormous amount of their energy and time turning away from that possibility and trying to arrange for a life where you won't be touched, where you'll be left immune by the great forces and elements of life.

"One of the difficulties of leaving a relationship is not so much of the end leaving the person themselves, because by that time you are ready to go. What's difficult is leaving the dreams that you share together and you know that somehow no matter who you meet in your life in the future, and no matter what species of happiness you will share with them, you will never ever share those particular dreams again, with that particular tonality and coloration. And so there's a lovely and powerful form of grief there, that is the ultimate in giving away but making space for another form of re-imagination."

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