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im quitting this thing. i used to find it fun to read and stuff but it's gotten to the point where its just people trashing each other and talking about stupid shit. and i used to just read it but now i find myself reacting to it. i can't not share my opinion which just causes me to have to read more shit which just makes me angrier in the long run. and the more i share my opinion the more people trash my views and call me ignorant. i'm tired of that so this is completely not worth it. i like bush, and i think alcohol is stupid and drugs are stupider. i'm tired of concerning myself with people who can't respect me and i've lost respect for so many people. i've become someone i can't stand this summer, but at least i've stuck to my beliefs and i can be happy with me for that. but i want to go back to never confronting people about anything no matter how much they upset me. i want to go back to being a pushover and i'm never going to do that if i keep reading about how people who used to be my best friends have associated themselves with things i can't stand. because i forgot how to be a friend when all that happened. it was easier to seperate myself and then tell them they're stupid than try and talk them out of making bad decisions. but i don't think that would have worked anyways. i didn't say those things because i wanted to hurt peoples feelings, i said them because i didn't know how else to react. i really was/am worried about what might happen because of your decisions. it scares me to death to think what might happen to any of you, whether i approve of what you do or not. but i'm not going to concern myself with it anymore because you obviously don't want me to. so i'm going to go back to middle school like everyone wants me to and pretend like no one i know would ever do those things. becuase it's easier that way. it's just fucking easier that way. i just wish everything could be like last year...everyone had fun and no one had to do all of that stuff. i just don't get why things couldn't stay like that. whatever.
goodbye livejournal.
goodbye livejournal.