A Drunken Good Time
I'm not drinking till the weekend.
You know I haven't changed at all. I'm exactly the exact same person as I was so long ago but with better intentions in life. I don't know what they are yet, but I hope I will soon find out.
One thing that I noticed about myself that hasn't changed is my problem with letting go. When I love I love hard and when I turn my head I stare far away.....I don't know if that makes sense to anyone thats reading this. I want to be somewhere in the middle of those feelings.
I hate myself more and more every damn day. I don't understand how someone can hate themselves so much but that seems to be what I do. It can make someone go crazy and crazy is starting to become my card.
I don't have the balls to call you again.........it will be fine darling...I promise.
Last night I went to the good life with paul. Great show...too much alcohol. It was great running into Neil, Kevin, and Mallory. Neil seems like a better person...though he still tried kissing me over and over. Also later on in the show I was amazed to see Michelle. I haven't talked to that girl for a year and half....such a sweetheart.
After the show I dropped off paul at his car and then Cinco called me out to Paddy Bs. I went had another drink, which is like the cherry on top of this alcohol sundae. I didn't get home until 3 in the morning and now I am studying for my finale.
I'm a sucker for a drink.
Ahmad
You know I haven't changed at all. I'm exactly the exact same person as I was so long ago but with better intentions in life. I don't know what they are yet, but I hope I will soon find out.
One thing that I noticed about myself that hasn't changed is my problem with letting go. When I love I love hard and when I turn my head I stare far away.....I don't know if that makes sense to anyone thats reading this. I want to be somewhere in the middle of those feelings.
I hate myself more and more every damn day. I don't understand how someone can hate themselves so much but that seems to be what I do. It can make someone go crazy and crazy is starting to become my card.
I don't have the balls to call you again.........it will be fine darling...I promise.
Last night I went to the good life with paul. Great show...too much alcohol. It was great running into Neil, Kevin, and Mallory. Neil seems like a better person...though he still tried kissing me over and over. Also later on in the show I was amazed to see Michelle. I haven't talked to that girl for a year and half....such a sweetheart.
After the show I dropped off paul at his car and then Cinco called me out to Paddy Bs. I went had another drink, which is like the cherry on top of this alcohol sundae. I didn't get home until 3 in the morning and now I am studying for my finale.
I'm a sucker for a drink.
Ahmad