it's...not...your's...FUCK YOU!!!!!
I'm wide awake right now, and it's really awful.
I'm reading my Courtney Love biography by Poppy Z. Brite for the 3rd time.
I wish i could have a life as exciting as her's was.
It makes me think of how much I miss Marissa, my little Cruton. Being in 8th grade and hating our English teacher b/c he was too nice to the wrong people. Coming to my house and listening to Kittie. Walking to science and saying "bye bye" like at the end of Hole's "Rockstar". When "Pixiemeat" was our nickname for Bret Deleginer and not just Courtney's early nickname for Kurt. I wish she was allowed out more. One day I'm gonna get her when she doesn't have work (and when I don't either for that matter), and steal her away. And we can go shop at Northern Thrift and eat Tian Tian untill we yak, and smoke cigarettes, and I can help her not be scared of all the dirty old men we'd see. 'Cause shes like that sometimes. <3. One day Marissa, watch the fuck out. <33333
So work (although quite amazing) has been consuming most of my time. I sleep untill i HAVE to wake up for work, get ready and leave, work, then go out with Alex until 2 in the morning. So I haven't been seeing my family, and it sucks. Alex and I have decided we need new friends in new place, b/c our's suck. Well, I've mentally decided, but since we are the same person, I'm sure Alex has mentally decided too.
Speaking of work, I looked damn hot for it today. I wore my black dickies shirt and these cute new shoes i bought. 4 1/2" black wedge heels with white poka dots, a big bow in top of the open toe, and a tie around the ankle. Black cardigan over a wifebeater, white and black poka-dot scarf in my (now fading out of black to copper) hair, and of course all the properly matching jewlery. I looked hot enough to fuck with the outfit still on. And it wouldn't be tough, who wears panties under a just-above-the-knee skirt anyway? ;)
Anyway, a few day's ago I (and my brother, strangely enough) recieved Ava's invation for her joint Party Monster/Babalyon (from Queer As Folk) sweet 16 party, and I'm really excited to go.
And for my first unbelieveably uneeded expensive splurge for my new job, I bought that personal Hello Kitty CD player at Target for like $40, it's so cute. I wanna dance around the house in my PJ's wearing it while I listen to my Patent Pending mix, or my Down&Out with The Dolls soundtrack, but I haven't had the fucking time. Which also sucks. =(
I'm trying to think if there's anything else worth updating. But I don't think there is.
Oh, Lauren left for college in the FLA on Monday, which made me really sad. She's leaving but she'll rock it so hard down there. She gave me a little leproad jewlery box, and I plan on keeping my insense cones/body jewlery in there when I finally get around to getting my nose pierced.
This event also reminded me that I will indeed too be starting college soon. Sept. 1st in fact, at the NCC.
I'm GOING to clean my room and also finish up that checklist in my user info by the time school starts. Well, get started on it anyway.
Ok well I think thats it for now.
later on.
XoXoX
I'm reading my Courtney Love biography by Poppy Z. Brite for the 3rd time.
I wish i could have a life as exciting as her's was.
It makes me think of how much I miss Marissa, my little Cruton. Being in 8th grade and hating our English teacher b/c he was too nice to the wrong people. Coming to my house and listening to Kittie. Walking to science and saying "bye bye" like at the end of Hole's "Rockstar". When "Pixiemeat" was our nickname for Bret Deleginer and not just Courtney's early nickname for Kurt. I wish she was allowed out more. One day I'm gonna get her when she doesn't have work (and when I don't either for that matter), and steal her away. And we can go shop at Northern Thrift and eat Tian Tian untill we yak, and smoke cigarettes, and I can help her not be scared of all the dirty old men we'd see. 'Cause shes like that sometimes. <3. One day Marissa, watch the fuck out. <33333
So work (although quite amazing) has been consuming most of my time. I sleep untill i HAVE to wake up for work, get ready and leave, work, then go out with Alex until 2 in the morning. So I haven't been seeing my family, and it sucks. Alex and I have decided we need new friends in new place, b/c our's suck. Well, I've mentally decided, but since we are the same person, I'm sure Alex has mentally decided too.
Speaking of work, I looked damn hot for it today. I wore my black dickies shirt and these cute new shoes i bought. 4 1/2" black wedge heels with white poka dots, a big bow in top of the open toe, and a tie around the ankle. Black cardigan over a wifebeater, white and black poka-dot scarf in my (now fading out of black to copper) hair, and of course all the properly matching jewlery. I looked hot enough to fuck with the outfit still on. And it wouldn't be tough, who wears panties under a just-above-the-knee skirt anyway? ;)
Anyway, a few day's ago I (and my brother, strangely enough) recieved Ava's invation for her joint Party Monster/Babalyon (from Queer As Folk) sweet 16 party, and I'm really excited to go.
And for my first unbelieveably uneeded expensive splurge for my new job, I bought that personal Hello Kitty CD player at Target for like $40, it's so cute. I wanna dance around the house in my PJ's wearing it while I listen to my Patent Pending mix, or my Down&Out with The Dolls soundtrack, but I haven't had the fucking time. Which also sucks. =(
I'm trying to think if there's anything else worth updating. But I don't think there is.
Oh, Lauren left for college in the FLA on Monday, which made me really sad. She's leaving but she'll rock it so hard down there. She gave me a little leproad jewlery box, and I plan on keeping my insense cones/body jewlery in there when I finally get around to getting my nose pierced.
This event also reminded me that I will indeed too be starting college soon. Sept. 1st in fact, at the NCC.
I'm GOING to clean my room and also finish up that checklist in my user info by the time school starts. Well, get started on it anyway.
Ok well I think thats it for now.
later on.
XoXoX