Hello old friend
Hello, I've missed you. I come back to you just as confused about the world as when I left you. I am slowly starting to lose all hope in people. I want to believe it's only the people that surround me in my life, and that not everyone is as bad I portray them to be. I know pain, it seems all I know anymore. I try and look at the bright side of every situation. Every day seems to be more of a struggle than the last.
I dont want to be alone, it terrifies me. So I end up looking for something to fill the void. I turn up empty handed in the end. I dont understand how people can be like they are. Why is it so acceptable to just use another human being as if they are pre-programed robots that lack emotion. I've always lived by a certain criteria in my life. It is fairly simple, at least i thought so. How can you let some one build up trust and feel like they are a part of your life, only to use it against them just to further you own enjoyment out of their torture. Because I mean that is what you are doing. If you know what they are doing to themselves hurts them, but yet they keep doing it and you let them as long as it benefits you.
I honestly don't understand how you people live with yourselves. I cant sit back and watch some one kill themselves because they are addicted to something or some one. As long as there is something I can do, i will try my best to help them. Some things are inevitable, some people there is just no helping. But the rest I will try and be there for, because I guess its my moral responsibility. How does everyone else seem to lack this emotion. Why is everyone so self absorbed.
I am sick of being stabbed in the back. I'm done with letting some one in my life and heart just to have them use my weaknesses against me. People must mistake my kindness for weakness. Just because I am nice to you and do everything I can to help you, don't think that I wont make you suffer if you cross me. I am not the kind of person you can keep using me till I have nothing left to give. I've let people drain my soul dry in the past, But don't think I'll make the same mistake twice. You have one shot at having my trust and respect. If you blow it, you only have yourself to blame. I know not everyone is perfect and people make mistakes. I only hold grudges when they are worth holding on to.
I dont want to be alone, it terrifies me. So I end up looking for something to fill the void. I turn up empty handed in the end. I dont understand how people can be like they are. Why is it so acceptable to just use another human being as if they are pre-programed robots that lack emotion. I've always lived by a certain criteria in my life. It is fairly simple, at least i thought so. How can you let some one build up trust and feel like they are a part of your life, only to use it against them just to further you own enjoyment out of their torture. Because I mean that is what you are doing. If you know what they are doing to themselves hurts them, but yet they keep doing it and you let them as long as it benefits you.
I honestly don't understand how you people live with yourselves. I cant sit back and watch some one kill themselves because they are addicted to something or some one. As long as there is something I can do, i will try my best to help them. Some things are inevitable, some people there is just no helping. But the rest I will try and be there for, because I guess its my moral responsibility. How does everyone else seem to lack this emotion. Why is everyone so self absorbed.
I am sick of being stabbed in the back. I'm done with letting some one in my life and heart just to have them use my weaknesses against me. People must mistake my kindness for weakness. Just because I am nice to you and do everything I can to help you, don't think that I wont make you suffer if you cross me. I am not the kind of person you can keep using me till I have nothing left to give. I've let people drain my soul dry in the past, But don't think I'll make the same mistake twice. You have one shot at having my trust and respect. If you blow it, you only have yourself to blame. I know not everyone is perfect and people make mistakes. I only hold grudges when they are worth holding on to.