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well what else is new each day gets worse what can i say...my life sucks...work is alright i am gettingthe hang of it...i like it, plus i get paid a lot...me and chris are getting a apartment soon thats all we been talking about and doing....well pretty much my life since i fucked it up has sucked...i have been working everyday...coming back to chris' and sleeping or trying...me and chris went to the super wal mart the other day to look at stuff for our apartment...but it reminded me of kerri so much so i wasn't so happy the whole time...it was nice of chris to bring me to wal mart to cheer me up ha...i honestly think i wont be happy again..i haven't smiled in like a week...oh well maybe a fake one to my boss but thats about it...i miss kerri....today we played a show, we sounded really good...kids danced...we left before, still crossed, the acacia strain, black my heart and bury your dead...cause i wanted to go home....yeah so i have one freind pretty much left...sean and josh dont like me anymore...i dunno if dave or jared do but whatever....i am honestly to busy focusing everything now on work and not caring about anyone or anything....my life sucks...i realized that....i would rather spend the rest of my life sulking in my room and working constintly then trying to find someone else....no one will ever make me feel the way you do....i cant believe you dont see the way you affect me....i love you...i am still gonna prove to you that i love you!
and i give up forever to touch you, cause i know that you feel me somehow, your the closest to heaven that i'll ever be and i dont wanna go home right now, and all i can taste is this pain and all i can breath is your life and sooner or later its over, i just dont wanna miss you tonight, and i dont want the world to see me, cause i dont think that they'd understand, when everythings made to be broken i just want you to know who i am, and you can fight the tears that'v been coming and all the moments of truth in your life, when everything feels like the , yeah you bleed just to know your alive, and i dont want the world to see me, cause i dont think that they'd understand, when everyhtings madeto be broken i just want you to know who i am, i just want you to know who i am, i just want you to know who i am!
i would rather live the rest of my life alone and die alone by myself than not be able to have you....and if thats what has to happen then so be it....fuck who the fuck is gonna care about my life now....night
and i give up forever to touch you, cause i know that you feel me somehow, your the closest to heaven that i'll ever be and i dont wanna go home right now, and all i can taste is this pain and all i can breath is your life and sooner or later its over, i just dont wanna miss you tonight, and i dont want the world to see me, cause i dont think that they'd understand, when everythings made to be broken i just want you to know who i am, and you can fight the tears that'v been coming and all the moments of truth in your life, when everything feels like the , yeah you bleed just to know your alive, and i dont want the world to see me, cause i dont think that they'd understand, when everyhtings madeto be broken i just want you to know who i am, i just want you to know who i am, i just want you to know who i am!
i would rather live the rest of my life alone and die alone by myself than not be able to have you....and if thats what has to happen then so be it....fuck who the fuck is gonna care about my life now....night