My god!!!
Tell me why I always feel the need to get myself into situations that are fucked up, and that I can't get out of. Yes this does involve females. So anyways...WTF? It is so weird not knowing what the hell you want. To be lost and in the dark, in a really fucked up maze, and I can seem to find my way out. Just guessing which is the right way, and I keep bumping into walls. I keep having to go backwards. And somehow, it feels like I am alone, but people keep getting hurt. I hate hurting people. Do I just do what I need to do (break hearts), because I think it is right, or do I exhaust myself trying to spare them? I was called selfish the other night. HAHA, maybe I am. Got to be selfish at times. This shit is really killing me. Somedays I just want to lock myself in my room and just be by myself. And sleep. As I have said before sleep is my best friend, and it is becoming even better. Reality is just too fucked up. So I know Im leaving out details, but I cant post certain things. Well Im out of here.