Lost in Translation
I started this thing to vent... only a couple of my deepest darkest secret cone of silence friends will ever read this knowing my identity... but I've got to get this out and maybe some of you around here that I don't know, will relate to this. Here goes....
So there I am ... watching the movie Lost In Translation and it hits me... "Holy fuck, I'm this guy!"
Yep, that's me... married , successful artist, on the road, unhappy in life, miserable but successful wife at home taking care of kids, me needing to find some passion in life, falling in love with a young "wise beyond her years" girl, not "doing" anything with her, having good times and then feeling weird about it, having an (early in my case) mid life crisis... Damn that movie screwed me up! The other guys in my band... two of which are married now call those weird road phone calls from home "Translation calls".
Now, all this has been brewing for a while... my marriage has been in the tank for a couple of years now...I've been dealing with all this stuff (poorly at times) for a couple of years now.
Married young... too young... never sowed the wild oats...had kids... loaded down with responsibility... grew apart... became roommates instead of a couple...hardly ever have sex, (all her I might add)...
I'm still attracted to her a lot but she just doesn't seem to be at all passionate about anything in life .. let alone me...she just goes about her routine and is generally miserable about the whole thing.
We've tried all the stuff... counseling, REALLY focusing on each other but it always seems all the passion and emotion and work comes from me.
My journal is an account of the ongoing affair that has developed in my life. I would love your thoughts help and advice.
Please visit my journal and comment
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So there I am ... watching the movie Lost In Translation and it hits me... "Holy fuck, I'm this guy!"
Yep, that's me... married , successful artist, on the road, unhappy in life, miserable but successful wife at home taking care of kids, me needing to find some passion in life, falling in love with a young "wise beyond her years" girl, not "doing" anything with her, having good times and then feeling weird about it, having an (early in my case) mid life crisis... Damn that movie screwed me up! The other guys in my band... two of which are married now call those weird road phone calls from home "Translation calls".
Now, all this has been brewing for a while... my marriage has been in the tank for a couple of years now...I've been dealing with all this stuff (poorly at times) for a couple of years now.
Married young... too young... never sowed the wild oats...had kids... loaded down with responsibility... grew apart... became roommates instead of a couple...hardly ever have sex, (all her I might add)...
I'm still attracted to her a lot but she just doesn't seem to be at all passionate about anything in life .. let alone me...she just goes about her routine and is generally miserable about the whole thing.
We've tried all the stuff... counseling, REALLY focusing on each other but it always seems all the passion and emotion and work comes from me.
My journal is an account of the ongoing affair that has developed in my life. I would love your thoughts help and advice.
Please visit my journal and comment
Freeze