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I want to demolish all the little things, all the little connections, all the little things I can't get rid of, the things I feel the need to maintain in order to be who I am. I want to forget these things. I want to go back to zero. back to zero. back to the basic things. I want to enjoy nothing, and not in the sense that I dont want to enjoy anything. I want nothing to be what I enjoy. nothing will be the object of my enjoyment. back to zero. and if you took this to mean Im committing suicide then you dont know me at all. death is the last thing I want anything to do with. death takes everyone down. I die, you die, we take a little piece of everyone with us, and we cant even live to regret it. suicide is an escape, a cheap escape. in the end, you'll look back on everything you've worked through, and you'll be proud of yourself, I'll be proud of yourself, I'll be proud of myself. death settles nothing.
it scares me to touch on such a delicate subject. but I want to go back to zero, absolute zero. all these things need to go. complications need to shut the fuck up.
it scares me to touch on such a delicate subject. but I want to go back to zero, absolute zero. all these things need to go. complications need to shut the fuck up.