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I'm so ridicolously scared right now. I'm bawling my eyes out at the thought of not only my boyfriend leaving for college-but my family leaving for 4 months. Everything could change from bad to worse. What am i supposed to do at night ? who do i call? my boyfriends 2 hours away and I'm sure his roommate wouldn't apperciate that. I need him. I need someone here for me at home, someone to come make me dinner and make me laugh and how am i supposed to know what he really wants. what if he wants to find someone else there, someone that he can be with every day. someone better than me. I dont know what to do. I feel like a childish highschool girl, but its so much more than that. I'm so dependent upon him. I'm so in love. And my dad-now what. Seeing him scared makes me scared. Anything could happen. Anything. I'm so sick of being strong. I want to cry and I want my boyfriend home and I want my old dad back.