Christmas, Yuletide... A time...
To remember and to forget.
To remember the goodness in others, the love shared, the dreams realized and the hearts that glow behind it all.
And to forget... Past hurts, past wrongs, past moments where Man is his own worst enemy and proves it.
In all the import of trust, respect and peace toward our fellows shines as a star in the East to lead us to our own salvation Regardless of where it comes from. We ourselves must learn forgiveness and faith. Only through our Own sense of self decency can we hope to be saved.
Hummm... Now that's out of the way... XD
Oh wait, not quite. For those who really want to talk to me, I'm opening the lines of communication for a couple days going into the general new year. I can't promise I can be on any of the messengers given that my computer's a piece of... Eeer... Okay, I can forgive all but the comp... [small glare at it] But anyway... If somebody would like to wish me a happy holiday, now's the time to do it. I won't bitecha if you leave a note here or in my email. I'll even try to be pleasant. LOL
I can't promise much beyond that time period because well, I'm still not in a good place emotionally or mentally and I can't give what I don't have or can't keep a promise about. Yes, I have issues. We all knew this before but for a short time a year, you can pretend I'm not mental and I'll do the same for you, Mkay?
[grinz] And what's a greater show of holiday cheer than setting aside our mutual feelings of "that person is Nuttier than a Christmas Fruitcake!" for just the span of the days of the holidays? ;)
----♥----
Oh
Kay...
Now that That's Really over with...
(not to be confused with the Yule Log... Not that you Would.)
I'm not entirely sure what all I've said on the subject... But I've come to the conclusion that... Okay... Lost my train of thought there. I know, it's sooo easy for those things to get derailed. Anyway...
It was something Marty orientated at any rate. Not much to report on that front really... Well other than some weird lil gniggles from the back of my brain that I generally ignore with the rest of the Looniville Traveling Circus that is my mental state.
I'm trying to put some edges on things, some sort of markers that say 'watch that last step, it's a doozy.'
Particularly with my mental state. It's hard to remain detached about it. I mean well, it's inside my head, it's not all that simple or an easy task to set something like that off out of the way so I can accomplish something else.
**[gets distracted by Timmy on Gaia in the spiritual journey bit and roars with laughter] Good Lord! Gaia has it's problems but I Have to say, they Definitely have a warped sense of humor I can get behind!
[shakes head and pats Timmy's shoulder] It's okay buddy. I'm damned too in the eyes of most religious beliefs... We can car pool together on our road trip to Hell! LOL
Come on, save the planet, use car pooling... Besides, a lot of us are freezing our asses off in the Frozen No'th and Hell Might actually feel refreshingly nice on old achy joints.
As Mark Twain once wrote, "I choose Heaven for the climate, Hell for the company."
We's all in fair to fine company here in the car pool lane to hell! ;)**
Let's see... What else... Well I mentioned we got a new car. A silver PT Cruiser called Bess from Alabam way. Chris has Xmas off. I'm getting a cold. (No Dee, it's Not Swine Flu, chill.) It's cold, it's snowy and it sucks being creaky jointed and old in the frozen no'th.
Oh and I'm "in heat" again. ¬¬'
No I don't want to talk about it. That's on that list too. Along with "The Chocolate Chocolate Chip Cake Incident", my period (& all it entails), and now being in heat. I'm sure there will be Other incidents and items added in the near future but for now, those are on the list of things I Won't talk about... Ever... Even on pain of Death or Tickling.
Okay, I'll probably Joke about those things but any Direct details or commentary will be aimed at making sure you understand I Won't talk about them. So Nyah! XD
Oh and Chris bought me a box of caramels for christmas. No idea what I can give him in return.
[sigh] Being a pet really has it's limits I can tell you. I mean, I don't caper about like the other pets of the house and well, I may have something of a tummy but it's not that pretty creamiery fuzzy fluff the others have. So rolling around trilling so he can rub tummy fluff and feel more relaxed is out.
>>;;
Oh Kay... that made alll Sortsa odd "eeerrrmm" notions pop up so we'll just pretend I didn't just say that, shall we?
I suppose I could make him a special meal? Maybe that would be acceptable? I mean I made his new car a nice key chain so he didn't have to keep using the old nasty one but I doubt that counts as a present really. And I try to help out around the house anyway so That won't work. And he's not much into online graphics or really Any art I do so That won't work. So I guess it's going to have to be a special meal. Not sure what it'll be but we'll see.
I know nobody or at least very few pay much attention to what's going on on there. Admittedly, I seldom frequent the place much these days myself. But I was noticing something this round of visits...
I had patterned my ZII BoA 001 account after a character from my old rp days, Lena OrcSlayer. Now Lena has never really had much of a life outside of the occasional mention or spotted portrait in art here and there. She was a vaguely interesting character but beyond being one of the few dark skinned or nearly black characters I've ever done (not racism, just I'm not black and never felt comfortable trying to portray a culture I haven't much if any contact with) she was rather one dimensional. As in she's basically a very vague NPC even for my general Group of NPCs. I mean, it's a sad fact but Lena was pretty much only mentioned by my PC "lady" Storm maybe Once as an aside about who she was as a relative and why she appeared on a given page. That and a couple small graphical portraits I did of her, she never really took off. That is, until now. It seems she's taken on a few... Traits... I was not expecting. At least on Gaia.
I'm generally not shy about characters turning up with unusual qualities that aren't specific to myself. Specifically, my sexuality.
Generally speaking, I don't really talk about what my sexuality is.
I'm pretty open about it, so it's not that I'm in any way embarrassed about it. Simply put, I see no point in talking about it because really, it's nobody's business What it is. I could get into the mechanics of what I might be or even go on a page long discussion on the whole thing explaining that as far as I'm concerned, I really don't give too much of a shit about the person's gender beyond the basics. But again, I really Don't give a shit. That goes even as far as to what other folks Think about what my sexuality is.
Look, before I drop this, let me explain one thing and one thing only here... What I go to bed with should Not be the focus of your every day lives. If your entire moment is even spending One Nanosecond on whether or not I sleep with ladies over gents or visa versa, you Need. A. Friggin. Hobby.
That's true of myself as well. I don't Want or Need to know what You take to bed. What goes on in your bedroom is none of my business Nor do I have any interest in Making it my business.
So, to put it bluntly, STFU. Thank you. We'll All sleep better at night knowing I don't have such knowledge when it doesn't mean jack shit. You are not Just That nor am I, so there's no need for it to be the center of Anybody's gravity, Capisce?
Moving on and back to what I was saying... It would seem StormSidhe (Storm's "twin" sister) came by her sexual preference naturally going by Lena's seeming choices about the companions on Gaia that she chooses. This doesn't trouble me so much as makes me cock my head with a mild "huh. that's interesting." sort of response. I'm always mildly fascinated when a character of mine shows more depth than I originally gave them credit for having. When they turn up with more personality, it's rather like how my mother viewed infants... Until they actually Show some sort of personality, they're more or less furniture to me. Meaning they Exist but only Just. Sort of like a decorative vase. It's there, and I Suppose it's Sort of interesting but meh, not really. Until I need it or it gets broken or whatever to require my Actual Attention Directed at it, I don't care about it as anything more than a vague 'huh, okay, avoid the end table or it'll make a mess and/or hurt. moving on.' sort of notion.
So it's a bit of a peak in interest for me to discover a vague background non-character appears to have something of a personality After all. Not enough to really Do much about it other than perhaps there's more of a thought about whether or not to put more effort into her as her Own character. But again, not really. If she shows More traits or personality beyond this and what she started with, perhaps I'll bother writing up something. Probably not though. I'm kinda lazy and I already Have a ton of characters that need updating and fine tuning that are just sitting there moldering away into obscurity as it is.
Anyway, it's something to write about here I suppose. XD
See? Personality Does equal more attention already! LOL
Anyway, that's enough gibbering for today. Have a good holiday season and avoid the eggnog. It's got that weird wonky smell to it. I think Gramps spiked it again. >>;;
Yulefully yours,
♥~me
**Disclaimer: The previous seeming good cheer was Not a sign that all is well in the state of Denmark. Only that the author hates the holidays with a passion bordering on or crossing into the insane but is Trying not to bring everybody Else down with her/me. I'm still very much in a state of emofic dischord of darkness and distain. I'm just very good at pretending for the benefit of my audience Not to but a totally kcuf'ed up doom-n-gloomer when I choose to. I just don't often choose to. So Nyah! XP~*
To remember the goodness in others, the love shared, the dreams realized and the hearts that glow behind it all.
And to forget... Past hurts, past wrongs, past moments where Man is his own worst enemy and proves it.
In all the import of trust, respect and peace toward our fellows shines as a star in the East to lead us to our own salvation Regardless of where it comes from. We ourselves must learn forgiveness and faith. Only through our Own sense of self decency can we hope to be saved.
Hummm... Now that's out of the way... XD
Oh wait, not quite. For those who really want to talk to me, I'm opening the lines of communication for a couple days going into the general new year. I can't promise I can be on any of the messengers given that my computer's a piece of... Eeer... Okay, I can forgive all but the comp... [small glare at it] But anyway... If somebody would like to wish me a happy holiday, now's the time to do it. I won't bitecha if you leave a note here or in my email. I'll even try to be pleasant. LOL
I can't promise much beyond that time period because well, I'm still not in a good place emotionally or mentally and I can't give what I don't have or can't keep a promise about. Yes, I have issues. We all knew this before but for a short time a year, you can pretend I'm not mental and I'll do the same for you, Mkay?
[grinz] And what's a greater show of holiday cheer than setting aside our mutual feelings of "that person is Nuttier than a Christmas Fruitcake!" for just the span of the days of the holidays? ;)
----♥----
Oh
Kay...
Now that That's Really over with...
(not to be confused with the Yule Log... Not that you Would.)
I'm not entirely sure what all I've said on the subject... But I've come to the conclusion that... Okay... Lost my train of thought there. I know, it's sooo easy for those things to get derailed. Anyway...
It was something Marty orientated at any rate. Not much to report on that front really... Well other than some weird lil gniggles from the back of my brain that I generally ignore with the rest of the Looniville Traveling Circus that is my mental state.
I'm trying to put some edges on things, some sort of markers that say 'watch that last step, it's a doozy.'
Particularly with my mental state. It's hard to remain detached about it. I mean well, it's inside my head, it's not all that simple or an easy task to set something like that off out of the way so I can accomplish something else.
**[gets distracted by Timmy on Gaia in the spiritual journey bit and roars with laughter] Good Lord! Gaia has it's problems but I Have to say, they Definitely have a warped sense of humor I can get behind!
[shakes head and pats Timmy's shoulder] It's okay buddy. I'm damned too in the eyes of most religious beliefs... We can car pool together on our road trip to Hell! LOL
Come on, save the planet, use car pooling... Besides, a lot of us are freezing our asses off in the Frozen No'th and Hell Might actually feel refreshingly nice on old achy joints.
As Mark Twain once wrote, "I choose Heaven for the climate, Hell for the company."
We's all in fair to fine company here in the car pool lane to hell! ;)**
Let's see... What else... Well I mentioned we got a new car. A silver PT Cruiser called Bess from Alabam way. Chris has Xmas off. I'm getting a cold. (No Dee, it's Not Swine Flu, chill.) It's cold, it's snowy and it sucks being creaky jointed and old in the frozen no'th.
Oh and I'm "in heat" again. ¬¬'
No I don't want to talk about it. That's on that list too. Along with "The Chocolate Chocolate Chip Cake Incident", my period (& all it entails), and now being in heat. I'm sure there will be Other incidents and items added in the near future but for now, those are on the list of things I Won't talk about... Ever... Even on pain of Death or Tickling.
Okay, I'll probably Joke about those things but any Direct details or commentary will be aimed at making sure you understand I Won't talk about them. So Nyah! XD
Oh and Chris bought me a box of caramels for christmas. No idea what I can give him in return.
[sigh] Being a pet really has it's limits I can tell you. I mean, I don't caper about like the other pets of the house and well, I may have something of a tummy but it's not that pretty creamiery fuzzy fluff the others have. So rolling around trilling so he can rub tummy fluff and feel more relaxed is out.
>>;;
Oh Kay... that made alll Sortsa odd "eeerrrmm" notions pop up so we'll just pretend I didn't just say that, shall we?
I suppose I could make him a special meal? Maybe that would be acceptable? I mean I made his new car a nice key chain so he didn't have to keep using the old nasty one but I doubt that counts as a present really. And I try to help out around the house anyway so That won't work. And he's not much into online graphics or really Any art I do so That won't work. So I guess it's going to have to be a special meal. Not sure what it'll be but we'll see.
I know nobody or at least very few pay much attention to what's going on on there. Admittedly, I seldom frequent the place much these days myself. But I was noticing something this round of visits...
I had patterned my ZII BoA 001 account after a character from my old rp days, Lena OrcSlayer. Now Lena has never really had much of a life outside of the occasional mention or spotted portrait in art here and there. She was a vaguely interesting character but beyond being one of the few dark skinned or nearly black characters I've ever done (not racism, just I'm not black and never felt comfortable trying to portray a culture I haven't much if any contact with) she was rather one dimensional. As in she's basically a very vague NPC even for my general Group of NPCs. I mean, it's a sad fact but Lena was pretty much only mentioned by my PC "lady" Storm maybe Once as an aside about who she was as a relative and why she appeared on a given page. That and a couple small graphical portraits I did of her, she never really took off. That is, until now. It seems she's taken on a few... Traits... I was not expecting. At least on Gaia.
I'm generally not shy about characters turning up with unusual qualities that aren't specific to myself. Specifically, my sexuality.
Generally speaking, I don't really talk about what my sexuality is.
I'm pretty open about it, so it's not that I'm in any way embarrassed about it. Simply put, I see no point in talking about it because really, it's nobody's business What it is. I could get into the mechanics of what I might be or even go on a page long discussion on the whole thing explaining that as far as I'm concerned, I really don't give too much of a shit about the person's gender beyond the basics. But again, I really Don't give a shit. That goes even as far as to what other folks Think about what my sexuality is.
Look, before I drop this, let me explain one thing and one thing only here... What I go to bed with should Not be the focus of your every day lives. If your entire moment is even spending One Nanosecond on whether or not I sleep with ladies over gents or visa versa, you Need. A. Friggin. Hobby.
That's true of myself as well. I don't Want or Need to know what You take to bed. What goes on in your bedroom is none of my business Nor do I have any interest in Making it my business.
So, to put it bluntly, STFU. Thank you. We'll All sleep better at night knowing I don't have such knowledge when it doesn't mean jack shit. You are not Just That nor am I, so there's no need for it to be the center of Anybody's gravity, Capisce?
Moving on and back to what I was saying... It would seem StormSidhe (Storm's "twin" sister) came by her sexual preference naturally going by Lena's seeming choices about the companions on Gaia that she chooses. This doesn't trouble me so much as makes me cock my head with a mild "huh. that's interesting." sort of response. I'm always mildly fascinated when a character of mine shows more depth than I originally gave them credit for having. When they turn up with more personality, it's rather like how my mother viewed infants... Until they actually Show some sort of personality, they're more or less furniture to me. Meaning they Exist but only Just. Sort of like a decorative vase. It's there, and I Suppose it's Sort of interesting but meh, not really. Until I need it or it gets broken or whatever to require my Actual Attention Directed at it, I don't care about it as anything more than a vague 'huh, okay, avoid the end table or it'll make a mess and/or hurt. moving on.' sort of notion.
So it's a bit of a peak in interest for me to discover a vague background non-character appears to have something of a personality After all. Not enough to really Do much about it other than perhaps there's more of a thought about whether or not to put more effort into her as her Own character. But again, not really. If she shows More traits or personality beyond this and what she started with, perhaps I'll bother writing up something. Probably not though. I'm kinda lazy and I already Have a ton of characters that need updating and fine tuning that are just sitting there moldering away into obscurity as it is.
Anyway, it's something to write about here I suppose. XD
See? Personality Does equal more attention already! LOL
Anyway, that's enough gibbering for today. Have a good holiday season and avoid the eggnog. It's got that weird wonky smell to it. I think Gramps spiked it again. >>;;
Yulefully yours,
♥~me
**Disclaimer: The previous seeming good cheer was Not a sign that all is well in the state of Denmark. Only that the author hates the holidays with a passion bordering on or crossing into the insane but is Trying not to bring everybody Else down with her/me. I'm still very much in a state of emofic dischord of darkness and distain. I'm just very good at pretending for the benefit of my audience Not to but a totally kcuf'ed up doom-n-gloomer when I choose to. I just don't often choose to. So Nyah! XP~*