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I always thought I'd be a mom//
Sometimes I wish for a mistake//
The longer that I wate the more selfish that I get//
You seem like, you'd be a good dad//
I was at the beach this weekend, so I had a lot of time to relax and I was really thinking about things. I realized that I am different than most people, really different. I have certain privileges, but with it comes certain sacrifices and responsibility. I am extremely grateful for that of which I have and am achieving, but at the same time, some of it blows. I am not different in the way that, like everyone else in the world, have done things I am not proud of and have to cope and deal with some pretty rough obstacles. I realized though, I am not quite the person I thought I was. If I was that person, there wouldn't be anything holding me back or constantly reminding me to stay away. If I am like that, than I am no better than those who have made me feel that way, including myself. I am disappointed in myself, but am glad I caught it. I am going to try very hard to fix this oh so messed up head of mine!!! There are certain aspects in my life that I can not change, sadly, but that does not give me a reason to stop living. I need to be the person I thought I was this whole time, so that when I look in the mirror, I won't feel the urge to break it anymore, like I have done.
On a happier note, Disney loves me. They really do! I can't explain the whole thing, but keep me in your prayers!
"Society is one big eyeball looking at you." -Katherine Suzanne Burditt
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
God Bless
Sometimes I wish for a mistake//
The longer that I wate the more selfish that I get//
You seem like, you'd be a good dad//
I was at the beach this weekend, so I had a lot of time to relax and I was really thinking about things. I realized that I am different than most people, really different. I have certain privileges, but with it comes certain sacrifices and responsibility. I am extremely grateful for that of which I have and am achieving, but at the same time, some of it blows. I am not different in the way that, like everyone else in the world, have done things I am not proud of and have to cope and deal with some pretty rough obstacles. I realized though, I am not quite the person I thought I was. If I was that person, there wouldn't be anything holding me back or constantly reminding me to stay away. If I am like that, than I am no better than those who have made me feel that way, including myself. I am disappointed in myself, but am glad I caught it. I am going to try very hard to fix this oh so messed up head of mine!!! There are certain aspects in my life that I can not change, sadly, but that does not give me a reason to stop living. I need to be the person I thought I was this whole time, so that when I look in the mirror, I won't feel the urge to break it anymore, like I have done.
On a happier note, Disney loves me. They really do! I can't explain the whole thing, but keep me in your prayers!
"Society is one big eyeball looking at you." -Katherine Suzanne Burditt
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3
God Bless