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so i did it...like a fucking asshole...i went back to my alma mater...haha. yeah i visited the boys at manhattan college. and let me tell you...i was all psyched going because i was gonna see casey who i havent seen in foreverrrr. and matt and paulie and mare were gonna meet me there. as soon as i pulled up i got the biggest stomach pains. i was like why the f am i here?? i had fun...lots of drunkeness of course but like i hated being at that exact location. thank god casey has his own apartment elsewhere because then id really kill myself if i had to stay in my old building. its like as much as you want things to be the same its not. 6 girls that were my life werent there at all...i mean i had maryanne which was soooo awesome. but its just such a different feel there. i mean i totally had a blast hanging out with those boys again but like i just wish things were the same....or maybe i dont wish it was the same because you cant force something like that. my life was a certain way for a while...and now its not and i wouldnt want to even attempt to recreate it...i just have to embrace the difference and refer to my memories. well i got to get ready for mike larry mike belmo's bbq which starts like now.