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An ex of mine Imed me today. He told me his story in a nutshell of the past few years and a lot of bad things have happened. But then he said something that took me by surprise. He apologized for being who he was when we were together and that I deserved better than that. He said he wanted to reconcile the past and hopes to start a new future.
I knew his life would end up the mess that it is, he was always on a downward slope in that way. I'm glad he wants to rebuild his life. All I could really tell him is good luck and I hope he gives himself the chance to rebuild.
But now I feel weird. A ghost of the past has come back and I'm wondering if it'll happen again. Someone else maybe. Maybe someone I don't want to talk to...or scared I'll talk to. And then again, why am I scared for that? This particular ex and I didn't part on bad terms. We ended it and still talked on and off for a few months...he just had problems...still does. If it feels this weird to talk to someone I didn't end on bad terms with, what if a different ghost of the past contacts me in some way? Scarey to think.
I knew his life would end up the mess that it is, he was always on a downward slope in that way. I'm glad he wants to rebuild his life. All I could really tell him is good luck and I hope he gives himself the chance to rebuild.
But now I feel weird. A ghost of the past has come back and I'm wondering if it'll happen again. Someone else maybe. Maybe someone I don't want to talk to...or scared I'll talk to. And then again, why am I scared for that? This particular ex and I didn't part on bad terms. We ended it and still talked on and off for a few months...he just had problems...still does. If it feels this weird to talk to someone I didn't end on bad terms with, what if a different ghost of the past contacts me in some way? Scarey to think.