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i think im falling apart, little by little actually. my ability to do homework has diminished, my ability to stay awake in class has disappeared, and my ability to stop lying to myself will never return. i havnt done anything productive in the longest time. i cant eat, i cant sleep, and sometimes when i wake up i just want to cry. sometimes i lay there in bed thinking about things and wonder why things are the way they are, and how much i would give to make it all different. i wish i could live more positivly so that way i could just tell myself that everything is really fine and that telling myself that i am fine would actually work. but instead. it doesnt. i really need to just get out of highschool.
i really want to lay down on the pavement in the pouring rain, and let it fall on my face. because when the rain stops, its the BEST feeling in the world.
i really want to lay down on the pavement in the pouring rain, and let it fall on my face. because when the rain stops, its the BEST feeling in the world.