Thoughts I put in my cellphone...
1.04.10 (The day I waited at the airport for 3 hours for my friend to pick me up...) Even though I try to put on a front that I don't hurt easily, that I'm always smiling (and when I smile I try my best to be genuine) I desperately pray that someone will notice this and help me... --maybe I should start helping myself, but I can't see myself as anything other than a failure, it's so easy for me to see the good in others people lives, and I find it hard to realize myself just how good I really have it...
2.18.10 I know it's too much to ask for but I want someone to worry about me the right way... --sometimes inside of feeling relieved and happy that someone worries for me... I end up feeling more stressed because they are worried about me... man I'm so messed up...
3.3.10 (lyrics to a potential song maybe? I guess right now I'd call it a poem...) I can cry now since no one is here, I can cry now because no one is watching, I just want someone to save me from myself...
3.5.10 I hate feeling stressed and uneasy, my heart won't settle it just keeps on beating, what do I do to get rid of this anxiety, something so simple for others to overcome, but when it's my turn my body becomes numb... unfinished
Ending note- writing though I somewhat dislike it, it's the best way for me to express my emotions, yet finding the right or perfect word it always to difficult for me...
Please find me a nice Berkeley man 'kay Kim... you know I not picky... I just want someone who will alway be there for me as much as I want to be there for him...
2.18.10 I know it's too much to ask for but I want someone to worry about me the right way... --sometimes inside of feeling relieved and happy that someone worries for me... I end up feeling more stressed because they are worried about me... man I'm so messed up...
3.3.10 (lyrics to a potential song maybe? I guess right now I'd call it a poem...) I can cry now since no one is here, I can cry now because no one is watching, I just want someone to save me from myself...
3.5.10 I hate feeling stressed and uneasy, my heart won't settle it just keeps on beating, what do I do to get rid of this anxiety, something so simple for others to overcome, but when it's my turn my body becomes numb... unfinished
Ending note- writing though I somewhat dislike it, it's the best way for me to express my emotions, yet finding the right or perfect word it always to difficult for me...
Please find me a nice Berkeley man 'kay Kim... you know I not picky... I just want someone who will alway be there for me as much as I want to be there for him...