4 walls of dejection
Possibly one of the worst weekend ever. All because of someone who was totally unworthy.
I felt being flashbacked to 3 years ago where i woke up the next day and
reality just slapped me. Everything was just an act after all and i
foolishly stupendously fell for it. Saw things i shouldn't have seen,
heard things that i wished i never knew, everything felt like it was
being rubbed in my face, i guess it was karma or payback. For all the nasty
things i did or said to ppl, i am being placed to face all this misery.
People tend to move on, some replace others easily to get over it.
I have soo many conjured up thoughts on me being alone for the next
decade, old, fat and bitter. Still serving my 'payback'? Cursed to
infinite loneliness and misery.
If it wasn't for my best friends Ash and Emy, i wouldn't have felt
so much better. They are possibly the most dearest friends anyone can
ever have. Ever. They have always been around for me regardless of
the way i am. I'm thinking i may not be the most likeable person out
there but i have a few good friends who stood by me, whenever i felt
like tying a bag around my face and lighting it on fire. I love them
lots, they know who they are.
I felt being flashbacked to 3 years ago where i woke up the next day and
reality just slapped me. Everything was just an act after all and i
foolishly stupendously fell for it. Saw things i shouldn't have seen,
heard things that i wished i never knew, everything felt like it was
being rubbed in my face, i guess it was karma or payback. For all the nasty
things i did or said to ppl, i am being placed to face all this misery.
People tend to move on, some replace others easily to get over it.
I have soo many conjured up thoughts on me being alone for the next
decade, old, fat and bitter. Still serving my 'payback'? Cursed to
infinite loneliness and misery.
If it wasn't for my best friends Ash and Emy, i wouldn't have felt
so much better. They are possibly the most dearest friends anyone can
ever have. Ever. They have always been around for me regardless of
the way i am. I'm thinking i may not be the most likeable person out
there but i have a few good friends who stood by me, whenever i felt
like tying a bag around my face and lighting it on fire. I love them
lots, they know who they are.