::looking for crichton::

[eyeliner_slut]

Today in english class mrs Bullen blew me away. She has this perspective that I respect and admire so much. We are doing "dead poets society" and "looking for Alibrandi" as our main texts and the common theme is society vs. uniqueness. Perfect. In the double we talked about power and themes/issues for our lives (the things that just keep coming back and biting us on our arse, like sexuality or responsibility) and the modes (the ways we express our anger) ...It was so interesting, after that double I think I might do something to do with phycology... I've never felt so passionate about anything before, So I think I would be quite happy with a career like that. She also talked a lot about parental problems and how they try to retain power over us. It's all so true. Sometimes I wish my parents were just a little more..."flexible", it's just not fair sometimes. My brother can do what ever he wants and he gets away with it because my parents know they can't stop him, yet when it comes to me they still have this hold over me, I still ask them if i'm allowed to do whatever, and I get shutdown...They are learning though...
Three years ago I wasn't allowed to go to the beach with my friend, they got over that.
Two years ago I wasn't allowed to wear what I wanted, they got over that too...
Last year I wasn't allowed in a P platers car, they WILL get over that this year or I will just do it anyway, i'm over caring. It'll be hard at first because I do care what they think, but fuck it, it's my life, it I want to die in a car crash, then that's how i'm going to die.