dieting
i have never been in favor of diets
where when you get some food, you are so desperate for it and there is so little of it that you can't ever be satisfied or fully enjoy it;
where most of your time you are thinking of it, unhappy because of the lack of it;
where your body is raging and it makes you miserable;
where you can never really be happy, because there is this basic, bleeding need that you are choking down every minute of the day;
where you are ashamed of your own body's cravings and how you can't rip them out of you, how you have no control over them, how you sometimes give in to them;
where you are tempted, always, at all times, to cheat - especially given how very, very easy it is to do so;
where it is so hard all the time and there's no relief ever
I have never been fond of diets
I resent being on one right now
where when you get some food, you are so desperate for it and there is so little of it that you can't ever be satisfied or fully enjoy it;
where most of your time you are thinking of it, unhappy because of the lack of it;
where your body is raging and it makes you miserable;
where you can never really be happy, because there is this basic, bleeding need that you are choking down every minute of the day;
where you are ashamed of your own body's cravings and how you can't rip them out of you, how you have no control over them, how you sometimes give in to them;
where you are tempted, always, at all times, to cheat - especially given how very, very easy it is to do so;
where it is so hard all the time and there's no relief ever
I have never been fond of diets
I resent being on one right now