the dawn of light approaches
this was a kick ass 4th of july week.
i went up north last friday by clarkston kinda.
it was fun for me i caught alot of fish most of them were pretty big. and i caught them on lures which is alot harder than regular fishing. there was a serious lack of music and fireworks up north for it being the 4th of july and all. but i made the best of it. it was pretty peaceful. i got back home yesterday. and decided to visit angel. we drank so much beer i prolly had like 11 or 12. tommy came over after we got nice and toasty. that was the most beer ive ever drank in my life and no hang over. i didnt feel too sick to stay for a while the next day, usually all i wanna do when i wake up is leave but i didnt wanna leave angel hanging she didnt get up til like 3. as soon as she layed down she fell asleep and i was just lying there thinking for the whole night. so today i dont know what or how or why ted would be with crystal. but i was riding bikes with my 2 little sisters and we went to my house so they could see the new turtle, and my mom said ted was with crystal and they were coming by to get crystals hoodie. i told moms that if i seen him id want to fuck him up really bad so i left and went back to angels. but the capper is that i called crystal to figure out what was goin on and she said nothing about us being together and it didnt even really bother me. cuz i didnt give that relationship much hope. but inside it kind of sucks to lose a girl you think might be perfect in every way.
she mentioned her girlfriend or ex or whatever like it was natural so i think i assume they are back together and she just acted like me and her were never anything.
FUCK THAT
im only giving her that one chance and she will not get another chance to break my heart again. i hurt too much.
i think i already know and everyone around me even knows who my heart belongs to so. its not like any of this will matter when i get to look at ashley and tell her i love her.
i almost want to call her dad and talk to him and ask him if he will let me see her .
but right now i want to talk to her cuz shes only like my favorite person to talk to. call me baby. please i miss you.
i went up north last friday by clarkston kinda.
it was fun for me i caught alot of fish most of them were pretty big. and i caught them on lures which is alot harder than regular fishing. there was a serious lack of music and fireworks up north for it being the 4th of july and all. but i made the best of it. it was pretty peaceful. i got back home yesterday. and decided to visit angel. we drank so much beer i prolly had like 11 or 12. tommy came over after we got nice and toasty. that was the most beer ive ever drank in my life and no hang over. i didnt feel too sick to stay for a while the next day, usually all i wanna do when i wake up is leave but i didnt wanna leave angel hanging she didnt get up til like 3. as soon as she layed down she fell asleep and i was just lying there thinking for the whole night. so today i dont know what or how or why ted would be with crystal. but i was riding bikes with my 2 little sisters and we went to my house so they could see the new turtle, and my mom said ted was with crystal and they were coming by to get crystals hoodie. i told moms that if i seen him id want to fuck him up really bad so i left and went back to angels. but the capper is that i called crystal to figure out what was goin on and she said nothing about us being together and it didnt even really bother me. cuz i didnt give that relationship much hope. but inside it kind of sucks to lose a girl you think might be perfect in every way.
she mentioned her girlfriend or ex or whatever like it was natural so i think i assume they are back together and she just acted like me and her were never anything.
FUCK THAT
im only giving her that one chance and she will not get another chance to break my heart again. i hurt too much.
i think i already know and everyone around me even knows who my heart belongs to so. its not like any of this will matter when i get to look at ashley and tell her i love her.
i almost want to call her dad and talk to him and ask him if he will let me see her .
but right now i want to talk to her cuz shes only like my favorite person to talk to. call me baby. please i miss you.