May 20, 2002 12:26
Well,
Yesterday, Sunday, was the one month anniversary of April and I not having a fight.
This was a huge step for us.. because we were approaching the point of no return.. where no matter how much we love eachother.. if we just can't get along, we need to go our seperate ways.
So we decided that we had to quit fighting, and just talk through things.. and for the last month, we've done it flawlessly.
So how did we celebrate? By getting in a fight. Not five minutes after I called her.. around 8pm.. she started saying things that she knows makes me mad.. like that she's going on a date with this guy.. that I know isn't going to respect her and has a horrible past. I blew it out of proportion, and we got in a little spat..
then, I felt horrible about it.. so I started apologizing every 10 seconds, trying to make her feel better.. which only made things worse. It seemed like the more I tried to make us not fight at that point, the more annoyed she got.
Why can't there be some sort of protocol, that relationships have to follow? on the internet.. everyone uses the same protocols.. TCP/IP, FTP, yadda yadda.. and everyone knows the rules.. and everyone follows them, or they don't get to play.
I'm going to work on that.. I gotta call Dr. Laura.
John