Fate...
Sometimes I find myself in the strangest of places, meeting the best people. I sit and wonder, why... Why god damnit. Someone I will more than likely never see again, and. I have to sit and wonder. Why did I meet her tonight? I often feel like everything is meant to be, but just as much I wonder... Why... Why can I meet someone so similar to me, and feel so comfortable, yet know I will probably never be in the situation again. I'm miles from home, miles upon miles... She was so beautiful... I hope she stays in touch like she said she would.
Realistically, it is going to take the craziest of circumstances for us to ever cross paths again... I can hope right? But should I hope? Where will I be in life if we ever do meet again... Sometimes, you spend one night with someone, and it is everything you ever wanted... Everything. Maybe it's because I'm seeking just that, and want it to be, or maybe it really was. I'm not sure yet... All I know is, I'm driven insane constantly by circumstantial insanities. Things I have to live with for the rest of my life just wondering...
I do want it... And it is so depressing to try and comprehend why someone like her can have someone but I can't. Why does she get everything. Why is she aloud to have any sort of happiness after everything she's done. It isn't fair, and it might never be. But god damnit... I want what o want.... I want what most everyone wants... Unconditional love. Call me crazy, call me stupid, call me anything you want... I don't care. One of the best nights I've had in ages... I just hope it isn't too much to ask of my God and my Goddess to have it all the time. I could be miserable for the rest of my life and be happily in love. Does that even make sense? I'd give anything to be in love... And to have it be mutual? Well god damnit... I fucking deserve it. I do. I've sacrificed so much in my life for others... So much... When is it my time? It isn't like I'm going to stop being this nice!!!!! So when... When do I meet someone who can understand me. When do I meet someone who falls for me as I them... When can I be happy, not just on my own, but with my special someone... I'm so jealous of so many of my friends... They're so lucky... I thought I was lucky once...
My God, my Goddess...please... I'm begging you... Help me fall in love with the right one, for once...
Realistically, it is going to take the craziest of circumstances for us to ever cross paths again... I can hope right? But should I hope? Where will I be in life if we ever do meet again... Sometimes, you spend one night with someone, and it is everything you ever wanted... Everything. Maybe it's because I'm seeking just that, and want it to be, or maybe it really was. I'm not sure yet... All I know is, I'm driven insane constantly by circumstantial insanities. Things I have to live with for the rest of my life just wondering...
I do want it... And it is so depressing to try and comprehend why someone like her can have someone but I can't. Why does she get everything. Why is she aloud to have any sort of happiness after everything she's done. It isn't fair, and it might never be. But god damnit... I want what o want.... I want what most everyone wants... Unconditional love. Call me crazy, call me stupid, call me anything you want... I don't care. One of the best nights I've had in ages... I just hope it isn't too much to ask of my God and my Goddess to have it all the time. I could be miserable for the rest of my life and be happily in love. Does that even make sense? I'd give anything to be in love... And to have it be mutual? Well god damnit... I fucking deserve it. I do. I've sacrificed so much in my life for others... So much... When is it my time? It isn't like I'm going to stop being this nice!!!!! So when... When do I meet someone who can understand me. When do I meet someone who falls for me as I them... When can I be happy, not just on my own, but with my special someone... I'm so jealous of so many of my friends... They're so lucky... I thought I was lucky once...
My God, my Goddess...please... I'm begging you... Help me fall in love with the right one, for once...