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Yeah. I am not happy. Not in the least bit. Not with anything really. I just had a huge breakdown with my mom about everything in my life and she wants me to see a counselor now. Fuck that.
Yeah so apparently Mrs. Grefe didn't schedule me in Chemistry which would be my second lab science that I would have to pass to go to a four year school. So I have to go to night school and if I go to Taunton, they don't have Chemistry so I'd have to go to Brockton, AND even if I did get into that class, it's not considered a lab science, SO I still can't go to a four year school, meaning I'm going to BCC next year.
Taco Bell gave me 11.25 hours this week. Thats about $70 after taxes. The week before I got 9 hours. That means I'm only going to have about $30 of spending money for two weeks. I have to SOMEHOW pay for night school too. Damn it.
I'm incredibly lonely. All I think about is wanting to be with someone and there really is no one that can return that same feeling that I want. I thought I loved someone but I'm not good enough. It races through my mind every day, every hour. I guess I'm just not cut-out for love.
I smoked a whole pack of cigarettes the other day. I was really depressed. I will never do that again. I had no money to do something like that either. Fuck.
My grandparents are dying. My grandfather is terribly sick and his heart is doing terrible. My grandmother can't breathe without a machine. My other grandfather just had a bypass surgery thing to save his heart. 2/3 of his heart is dead.
During the little meeting with Mrs. Grefe, she brought up my mom. She started talking about how hard it must be and all this shit. This fucking woman tells me that I might not graduate and she wants to bring up more bad stuff. It makes me feel even worse. I was in tears walking to my C-block class after the meeting. Fuck her.
I got really impatient with Eric today at John's house and I realize that I was really being a dick. Sorry man.
I can't get a license until I turn 18 because I now have no money for driver's ed. This means that I have to have my mom drive me everywhere I go for another four months. She has no money for gas either.
My dad is doing financially horrible and he has to sell the house unless someone with a steady income who can pay rent lives in my house, which my mom can't do because she can't work anymore. So, this means I have to move because Brockton isn't giving my mom Section 8. Taunton I guess will though so I'll probably be back there.
I went insane about a month ago.
That's all my little problems. It's not really that important but I just figured I'd throw them out on my lj. yeah.
Yeah so apparently Mrs. Grefe didn't schedule me in Chemistry which would be my second lab science that I would have to pass to go to a four year school. So I have to go to night school and if I go to Taunton, they don't have Chemistry so I'd have to go to Brockton, AND even if I did get into that class, it's not considered a lab science, SO I still can't go to a four year school, meaning I'm going to BCC next year.
Taco Bell gave me 11.25 hours this week. Thats about $70 after taxes. The week before I got 9 hours. That means I'm only going to have about $30 of spending money for two weeks. I have to SOMEHOW pay for night school too. Damn it.
I'm incredibly lonely. All I think about is wanting to be with someone and there really is no one that can return that same feeling that I want. I thought I loved someone but I'm not good enough. It races through my mind every day, every hour. I guess I'm just not cut-out for love.
I smoked a whole pack of cigarettes the other day. I was really depressed. I will never do that again. I had no money to do something like that either. Fuck.
My grandparents are dying. My grandfather is terribly sick and his heart is doing terrible. My grandmother can't breathe without a machine. My other grandfather just had a bypass surgery thing to save his heart. 2/3 of his heart is dead.
During the little meeting with Mrs. Grefe, she brought up my mom. She started talking about how hard it must be and all this shit. This fucking woman tells me that I might not graduate and she wants to bring up more bad stuff. It makes me feel even worse. I was in tears walking to my C-block class after the meeting. Fuck her.
I got really impatient with Eric today at John's house and I realize that I was really being a dick. Sorry man.
I can't get a license until I turn 18 because I now have no money for driver's ed. This means that I have to have my mom drive me everywhere I go for another four months. She has no money for gas either.
My dad is doing financially horrible and he has to sell the house unless someone with a steady income who can pay rent lives in my house, which my mom can't do because she can't work anymore. So, this means I have to move because Brockton isn't giving my mom Section 8. Taunton I guess will though so I'll probably be back there.
I went insane about a month ago.
That's all my little problems. It's not really that important but I just figured I'd throw them out on my lj. yeah.