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[eyefloss]

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[anonymous]

I've never been in a relationship (the girlfriend/boyfriend kind) and I've always viewed them as tricky, unpredictable, and usually more harmful than good as well as short-lived, especially if you're still young (which I am). No one had ever wanted a relationship with me in high school, so they were easy to avoid. But some months ago, a good internet friend who was visiting told me they liked me in that way. We didn't talk about it any more after that, but I've been thinking about it ever since. Sometimes I think I should go ahead and ask them if they want to be more than friends, but other times I think about all the ways something like that can ruin the relationship between two people and it scares me. I really don't know what I'd be getting into. I like the friendship we have now, and I feel like we wouldn't be able to go back to that if a closer relationship didn't work out. The worst part is that I don't know if I love them. How do you know something like that? And the fact that I don't know if I feel anything for them makes me think that maybe I don't, but there are times when I really just want to see them and be near them. But then that could just be me wanting close contact with someone since it's not something I have often. Other times I just want to be alone. I'm letting things stay as they are for now, but mainly because I don't know what to do. I haven't told anyone about this.

this is kind of rambly but i'm really tired so i apologize

[eyefloss]

I wouldn't say they're tricky or harmful, but I do think that they tend to be unpredictable. But friendships and life tend to be that way as well.

Regarding love, I don't think it's something you always feel right away. I see it as something that develops over time. And I don't really think love at first sight happens very often. More often then not, dating doesn't really start off about love. It's more of a "I like you and you like me so we should date and see if this goes anywhere." And yeah, people get hurt and fucked over sometimes, and sometimes you break up, but sometimes they stay together.

I'm not saying you should do one or the other because I don't pretend to know the entire situation, and I feel it's not my business to be telling people what they should or should not do. But I hope whatever you decide is the choice that makes you happiest.