am i really 23?
I went out, i actually went out to a club kinda place, there was dancing, and music, and drinks. I had fun, but after a few hours i began to crave home. That quiet place. I just feel socially out of place. And people say that everyone feels socially out of place, but i feel like i am still in middle school, nervous, and very unpretty. Confidence and self esteem are two different things. It is easy to portray that you have confidence, when you don't have any self esteem. Its not that i don't have self esteem, i think its just compared to a lot of other people i feel somewhat insecure. But then again...who doesn't?
I think my problem is i let my insecurities in my way, or maybe the club scene is not MY scene. I really don't much care for drinking either. Don't get me wrong ill have a few drinks occasionally, but its just hard for me to get drunk. I can't really remember the last time i got completely sloshed. Im talking stumbling, head rolling sloshed.
Maybe before i leave here i will get sloshed. but id rather roll, or be at home stoned as fuck. maybe im just a homebody...there is nothing wrong with that, just makes me boring...thats all.
Well its late, i guess i shall attempt to sleep. .alone.
I miss cody...already. Love is a beautiful thing.
I think my problem is i let my insecurities in my way, or maybe the club scene is not MY scene. I really don't much care for drinking either. Don't get me wrong ill have a few drinks occasionally, but its just hard for me to get drunk. I can't really remember the last time i got completely sloshed. Im talking stumbling, head rolling sloshed.
Maybe before i leave here i will get sloshed. but id rather roll, or be at home stoned as fuck. maybe im just a homebody...there is nothing wrong with that, just makes me boring...thats all.
Well its late, i guess i shall attempt to sleep. .alone.
I miss cody...already. Love is a beautiful thing.