[we couldn't win in the end.. you're gone]
I don't know, so quit asking.
I'm all frazzled and stressed out.
I sprained my foot at Brandi's last Tuesday. It still hurts pretty bad.
Thursday she had a seizure and it was so scary.. I am still worried about her. I don't want that to happen to her ever. It is very sad.
It's like every time she thinks things are perfect, and then something else shitty comes out of nowhere and it's not fair.
Eck.
That day sucked so bad.
I was tired, in pain. Then all that stuff with Brandi.
And then I go home, and Brian and I had a little fight. It was stupid.
Over a DOLLAR.
Daaang.
We got over it, though.
Friday and Saturday were very loooong days.
The guy who owns the shop I work at keeps complaining that all the cashiers suck.. and I'm a cashier.
Today I got up semi-early and went to my mom's to meet her new boyfriend. Brian went with me, which was surprising. He a) hates going places, b) hates my mom. I was very surprised.
Her boyfriend was nice enough. My mom kept talking about her exes, though, and I thought that was a bit rude.
I think this fellow looks just like Brian (former stepdad Brian--not boyfriend Brian) except he has long hairs and he's taller.
My air conditioning is broken already.
When we got in to go to my mom's, it was blowing out warm air. And I just got it fixed a week ago. =bullshit.
I took it in to the place, and the guy said I've probably got a pretty bad leak, if it's already gone in a week. He said that's why they put dye in it, so they can tell.
Well then, shouldn't they have noticed it when they did the inspection on my car before giving it back to me?? Fucks. This better not cost me anything.
You know, all I wanted was to have my car in good shape before I went on this trip to Pennsylvania. And now my AC is broken again. The tape is still stuck in the player. And I've spent nearly $800 on it already, and I guess probably more to come.
Goddamn. I can't afford this. I can not afford this.
I am so worn out.
And I feel like shit.
I can't afford anything. I'm stressed out.
We're about to go on vacation in four days, and I'm not sure I can afford that. And I'm afraid my car is going to break in Pennsylvania. I am afraid I won't be able to make rent, from not working for 5 days. That's basically a whole paycheck that I am missing out on.
I haven't even confirmed someone to take the guineas while we're gone.
ahh shit.
Sidetrack--I need to get Pablo Honey again, because I just listened to a song off of it and I loved it. I need to give that album another try.
I want to get back into making art.
But
I can't afford that, either.
fuck it all.
I'm all frazzled and stressed out.
I sprained my foot at Brandi's last Tuesday. It still hurts pretty bad.
Thursday she had a seizure and it was so scary.. I am still worried about her. I don't want that to happen to her ever. It is very sad.
It's like every time she thinks things are perfect, and then something else shitty comes out of nowhere and it's not fair.
Eck.
That day sucked so bad.
I was tired, in pain. Then all that stuff with Brandi.
And then I go home, and Brian and I had a little fight. It was stupid.
Over a DOLLAR.
Daaang.
We got over it, though.
Friday and Saturday were very loooong days.
The guy who owns the shop I work at keeps complaining that all the cashiers suck.. and I'm a cashier.
Today I got up semi-early and went to my mom's to meet her new boyfriend. Brian went with me, which was surprising. He a) hates going places, b) hates my mom. I was very surprised.
Her boyfriend was nice enough. My mom kept talking about her exes, though, and I thought that was a bit rude.
I think this fellow looks just like Brian (former stepdad Brian--not boyfriend Brian) except he has long hairs and he's taller.
My air conditioning is broken already.
When we got in to go to my mom's, it was blowing out warm air. And I just got it fixed a week ago. =bullshit.
I took it in to the place, and the guy said I've probably got a pretty bad leak, if it's already gone in a week. He said that's why they put dye in it, so they can tell.
Well then, shouldn't they have noticed it when they did the inspection on my car before giving it back to me?? Fucks. This better not cost me anything.
You know, all I wanted was to have my car in good shape before I went on this trip to Pennsylvania. And now my AC is broken again. The tape is still stuck in the player. And I've spent nearly $800 on it already, and I guess probably more to come.
Goddamn. I can't afford this. I can not afford this.
I am so worn out.
And I feel like shit.
I can't afford anything. I'm stressed out.
We're about to go on vacation in four days, and I'm not sure I can afford that. And I'm afraid my car is going to break in Pennsylvania. I am afraid I won't be able to make rent, from not working for 5 days. That's basically a whole paycheck that I am missing out on.
I haven't even confirmed someone to take the guineas while we're gone.
ahh shit.
Sidetrack--I need to get Pablo Honey again, because I just listened to a song off of it and I loved it. I need to give that album another try.
I want to get back into making art.
But
I can't afford that, either.
fuck it all.