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I seriously believe that if I died or fell off the face of the earth, that no one would even notice. I'm so dead serious too, who EVER calls me? NO ONE! It's probably no one's fault but my very own, but seriously ever sinse that whole prom drama, not one person has called me, I even appologized to the one person it even concered and they couldn't even accept it and now everyone else just talks shit and still holds a grudge about it, I hear about it all the time. I seriously do not understand what the hell I've done. It's so lame how everyone always talks about how they think they have no friends and such but they always have something to do or someone to hang out with. The last time I hung out with someone other than my brother was last monday and before then... I think it was Greg and Justinwhen they came to reno one day like over a month ago, which me and Greg don't talk anymore and Justin is always busy anyway, and right now, I can't think of how many times sinse I've been back that a good guy friend of mine has kissed me and ruined our friendship all because we got "caught in the moment" or something stupid. I really hope that tomorrow I walk out into the street and a fucking garbage truck runs me over. Then I can go to my own funeral and give a speach to an empty room about my dead self. I'm just never going to make anyone happy.