sometimes
sometimes i just wish like i wasnt here! sometimes i just wish a had the guy i actually like. sometimes i wish all this and i know it will never come true!
i swear curt spends all his time trying to get a piece of ass. and no time what so ever and actually trying to get with a girl not for ass. sometimes i wounder. would he of just used me to get some or not. i really need t get over him. but he is not helping the process either. but yeah sam is trying to get with him again. i dunno any more. my life is soo freaking confusing. like ever since i knew that i can have kevin it has just been turned upside down and im soo sick of it. why cant my life just go smoothly for once. like why cant i have the guy i want(not kevin cuz i know that wont happen) but yeah why cant i just have some one that likes me for me and not because of other reasons. like hummm... i dunno. grr like i see everyone else getting boyfriends and girlfriends. but no not me! like ill come home and tell my mom ohhh so and so are together. that happens like everyday, but never do i say im going out with so and so. but i guess that is how my life is supposed to be right noe. maybe im not supposed to be with anyone. just maybe? i should just keep thinking that im not supposed to be with anyone. and if i do it will be with an ex-con like kevo said. haha! i sent kevin a thing to fill out about me and one question was, was do you see me getting married and he wrote and divorced and than the next question was if so with who and he said to an ex-con. i was like thankz kevin!!!he cracks me up sometimes. haha.
I TOTALLY GIVE UP ON PEOPLE, GUYZ, EVERYTHING! im done!! i never have good luck it is always bad! no matter what nuthin ever turns out the way i want them to!! and like im not trying to make people feel bad cuz my life suckz. im just trying to releave things. get them off my chest! ya know... so this journal is not for pitty. so yea no one better think that. okay well im done for now. bye
i swear curt spends all his time trying to get a piece of ass. and no time what so ever and actually trying to get with a girl not for ass. sometimes i wounder. would he of just used me to get some or not. i really need t get over him. but he is not helping the process either. but yeah sam is trying to get with him again. i dunno any more. my life is soo freaking confusing. like ever since i knew that i can have kevin it has just been turned upside down and im soo sick of it. why cant my life just go smoothly for once. like why cant i have the guy i want(not kevin cuz i know that wont happen) but yeah why cant i just have some one that likes me for me and not because of other reasons. like hummm... i dunno. grr like i see everyone else getting boyfriends and girlfriends. but no not me! like ill come home and tell my mom ohhh so and so are together. that happens like everyday, but never do i say im going out with so and so. but i guess that is how my life is supposed to be right noe. maybe im not supposed to be with anyone. just maybe? i should just keep thinking that im not supposed to be with anyone. and if i do it will be with an ex-con like kevo said. haha! i sent kevin a thing to fill out about me and one question was, was do you see me getting married and he wrote and divorced and than the next question was if so with who and he said to an ex-con. i was like thankz kevin!!!he cracks me up sometimes. haha.
I TOTALLY GIVE UP ON PEOPLE, GUYZ, EVERYTHING! im done!! i never have good luck it is always bad! no matter what nuthin ever turns out the way i want them to!! and like im not trying to make people feel bad cuz my life suckz. im just trying to releave things. get them off my chest! ya know... so this journal is not for pitty. so yea no one better think that. okay well im done for now. bye