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My medical bills are all paid off...and now I can start getting it together for a plane ticket.
I need to leave this state and start living my life, but at the same time I am fully aware of how comfortable I managed to get here in spite of my dissatisfaction...and how much I'm going to have to start over. Living here has been like being in a bubble stocked with local brews, affordable living, no sales tax and good friends. I've become some kind of an adult here, and have continued to find my voice despite being frozen with a pencil. I am scared of what lies ahead. I am scared of failure, mediocrity, sadness, and of gaining weight. But I'm starting to make myself whisper, "bring it." I've missed out on enough already.
I need to leave this state and start living my life, but at the same time I am fully aware of how comfortable I managed to get here in spite of my dissatisfaction...and how much I'm going to have to start over. Living here has been like being in a bubble stocked with local brews, affordable living, no sales tax and good friends. I've become some kind of an adult here, and have continued to find my voice despite being frozen with a pencil. I am scared of what lies ahead. I am scared of failure, mediocrity, sadness, and of gaining weight. But I'm starting to make myself whisper, "bring it." I've missed out on enough already.