a life-time cure only lasts so long
anyone know what ADHD is? I'm not sure if I talke about this stuff in here but eather way I'm talking about it now. I have ADHD, and in case you didn't know, ADHD is not some creepy spreadable infection desease. ADHD means Attention Defiset Hyperactive Disorder, its like it sounds, the inability to consentrate for very long on one thing. now you might argue that everyone feels that way at one point or anther but, like feeling sad or scard, not everyones to the point of depretion or anziaty attacts, and just like that there are levels of consentration or lack there of in this case. but I didn't even get to the good part yet. H for Hyperactive. I go throw each day with energy to spare, I'm talking running till I drop then starting up again in ten minutes with a smile, works great when I'm doing something I love because I never get tired, but other than that when I get off track I can't just settle down again that easly, or at least I used to be like that more when I was a little kid. these days its like you have heaps of energy and you have nothing to put it into. very hard to do anything I'm not passanet about for to long. but I thought all this fun stuff was delt with, years ago in Canada I was taking stuff that settled me down to be a regulare little brate like every other kid, and when it came time to be done school it was also about the same time the docs said I didn't need the stuff anymore, yay cured, I can go about my life with out worrying I'll run off to play a computer game when I need to get a job done like a little kid might. but sad fact is that as an adult, or at least thats what they call me now, when the time comes for my mind to wonder I end up just thinking about other stuff than work and thats enough for me to slow down. but I have the energy levels to over do everyone around me, ya I'm modest huh? but its true, if I could consentrate on something then I can work harder and for longer than anyone else I've talked to. its a great thing when I'm with a girl I like in bed lol. but in the rest of the world theres few things in life people like to do and fewer still that people don't hate, I'm lucky I have a job that I don't hate, but they want me to look into getting the right stuff for this ADHD because, after asking personle questions, which seemed their last resort before fireing me, they figured out thats likly what it was and their right I think. I guess I didn't deal with it, and maybe I can't ever, but it is something thats a good thing if I learn to use it the right way because if theres something I love doing then I'm better than anyone could be, or at least I try more to be better, and I don't give up or tire at all, and the stuff they have out for ADHD sort of nuls the bud stuff so I can consentrate easer and I still have the energy. all in all maybe I should have thought of this as the reason I wasn't doing so well but I was always told that if I have energy to complain about something then I have energy to keep going and icnor my problem, kind of means I don't see when I'm falling till I hit the floor. so thats it then, eather the advances of the world, and Australia above all the rest, will help me consentrate just enough to not forget what I need to be working on, or I find something out there thats more fun to do that I'll want to work hard at anyways, so far the only thing I've found like that are creative written work or fun in bed, and I don't see to many things in life a guy can get payed for doing that stuff as a main job. well maybe a few but I hardly put myself up in that catagory. ya I know what your thinking but I ment I'd be a bad story writer, the other I'm sure I'd be great at ;) lol