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Life isn't a highway! Life's a freakin' rollercoaster.
At least this past month it was...
I broke the passenger mirror on our van two days after we got it, and call me superstitious, but I swear since then it's been ups and downs central.
To the point where I was contemplating whether or not I may actually be certifiable. Call it too much on my plate, too little sleep for too long, or whatever, but I can balance what I've got, and when ONE MORE THING sidles in, I either want to hulk out, break down, or cuss someone out. I can't stand this feeling. I'm usually so easy to entertain. Growing up with two brothers and a neighbourhood of boys, I learned how to play by myself a lot, and have always enjoyed it. I'm also really good at finding someone to hang out with or talk to.
I think a big part is the pressure of life with Angus. I love him so much, and we're going the distance to help him, to make our home as Angus functional as possible, and yet he's still breaking things, getting into so many things he's not supposed to, and the communication delay is SOOOO frustrating. Thank God we're getting help from the CNDE-Dixville - they were here this week, and will be again soon.
Today, I just hope I can have a shower. I think Mum's going to come over and look after Leander so I can.
ps Two hours later: I've showered, feeling a little better, Angus is at daycare, Leander's asleep, will be going to the nurseries in L'Avenir to check out a few perennials to add to the meagre jardin of 2006, I think I'll rest for a while now...
BTW on a biiiig up-note, Audrey-Ann is coming over tonight for a first fitting of my outfit for Stephen's wedding - August 5th - I'm the mc, Mistress of Ceremonies, so it's going to be one fun night!
At least this past month it was...
I broke the passenger mirror on our van two days after we got it, and call me superstitious, but I swear since then it's been ups and downs central.
To the point where I was contemplating whether or not I may actually be certifiable. Call it too much on my plate, too little sleep for too long, or whatever, but I can balance what I've got, and when ONE MORE THING sidles in, I either want to hulk out, break down, or cuss someone out. I can't stand this feeling. I'm usually so easy to entertain. Growing up with two brothers and a neighbourhood of boys, I learned how to play by myself a lot, and have always enjoyed it. I'm also really good at finding someone to hang out with or talk to.
I think a big part is the pressure of life with Angus. I love him so much, and we're going the distance to help him, to make our home as Angus functional as possible, and yet he's still breaking things, getting into so many things he's not supposed to, and the communication delay is SOOOO frustrating. Thank God we're getting help from the CNDE-Dixville - they were here this week, and will be again soon.
Today, I just hope I can have a shower. I think Mum's going to come over and look after Leander so I can.
ps Two hours later: I've showered, feeling a little better, Angus is at daycare, Leander's asleep, will be going to the nurseries in L'Avenir to check out a few perennials to add to the meagre jardin of 2006, I think I'll rest for a while now...
BTW on a biiiig up-note, Audrey-Ann is coming over tonight for a first fitting of my outfit for Stephen's wedding - August 5th - I'm the mc, Mistress of Ceremonies, so it's going to be one fun night!