Dear Journal...
Another significant death in my life. My father's mother passed away at 6am today- my uncle called the Hull police because he didn't have my dad's number, trying to get ahold of him, and dad called back shortly afterwards to inform my mom. She's been gone from my life for a while longer, though- She was suffering from Alzheimer's for years, and no longer recognized any of us the last time we visited... which was years ago as well, I- I think.
Another funeral to go to.
One grandparent left. I dread that day when it comes, because it'll signify the inevitability approaching the next generation. Then I'll have to worry more about my parents.
Someday, death will try to chase me down, too. But I'm not going to let it catch me, no matter how lonely life gets as one by one, everyone I know and love goes. I'm not afraid... There's just no way I'm ready to move on in one lifetime.
I know she's better off now. Maybe she knows who I am again. Maybe she'll forgive me for not being there in her last years when it was so painful to never know her again. It doesn't change how bad I feel about it. I miss her almost as much as I did when she was cruelly forced to forget us.
Another funeral to go to.
One grandparent left. I dread that day when it comes, because it'll signify the inevitability approaching the next generation. Then I'll have to worry more about my parents.
Someday, death will try to chase me down, too. But I'm not going to let it catch me, no matter how lonely life gets as one by one, everyone I know and love goes. I'm not afraid... There's just no way I'm ready to move on in one lifetime.
I know she's better off now. Maybe she knows who I am again. Maybe she'll forgive me for not being there in her last years when it was so painful to never know her again. It doesn't change how bad I feel about it. I miss her almost as much as I did when she was cruelly forced to forget us.