2008 Reflection
I can say with confidence that 2008 was the worst year I've ever had. I can also say 2008 was the best year I've ever had.
It's so strange. The first half of 2008, I spent drowning myself in high school drama that for some reason I could not end nor escape. Every time I tried to, something different would pull me back in. On June 27th, UOP's orientation came and my world flipped upside down. God had given me a second chance.
From time to time at UOP, I look back and wonder "What if things had turned out differently? Better in a sense?" I know it is selfish of me, but I would not go back in time to change anything. All of those events revealed something about those who were involved, both the good and bad. I realized now we all needed these to learn more about ourselves and our hidden desires. It was not until about 3 weeks ago when I talked to rennaii that I figured out exactly why I did all those things. Funny thing was, the subject of our conversation had nothing to do with these events; it just popped up in my mind (you know, like those light bulb ideas). Even worse was I realized what I really wanted with all of my heart for the past two years had no relation to any of the people involved, and for this I apologize. I cannot apologize though for hurting others because I was hurt at the same time. Perhaps, we're even? Not even close? There are just some things that can never be made up for, so let's leave it in the past.
I want 2009 to be the beginning of all good things.
Never again will I make the same mistakes as those of 2008.