Reflective...but not very profound...it is just Diana after all.
Ahh yes the exhaustion settles in... WELL! I've been moving like a madman lately: between the internship, and work, and my plain old desire for bein busy. I am officially poopeed. Wakin up at 4 in the mornin, bein at work by 5, workin till 12 or even one, coming home, doing whatever i need to do for the day, checking in at school, going to play practice and then goin to work...well lets just say it gets tough.
But I am deffinitely not complaining. Everything is going pretty swimmingly. It seems that all of my ducks are in a row...well most of them at least. I sent my money to Simmons. It looks like I'll be going there...unless I hear from BU or BC from the waiting list shizzle. The college selection process can be infinitely nerveracking, but at this point...i know ill be happy wherever I go. EVerything will be ok. If not, I'll transfer.
But despite everything that is going well right now. I feel nervous about something...weird...awkward...unsure. I don't even know what it is but it is putting me on edge. Something in my life isn't right...isn't in a row. And once again, I'm not complaining. I am very happy and it feels that nothing can truly bring me down. BUt there is that one space in my life that is just plain old odd. Something missing.
But that's life eh? I've come a long way from my nearly suicidal posts of the past...especially earlier this year. What a mess that was. It's strange how much someone can actually grow. And yet with this sort of perfection that my life is leading to, at least in comparison, there are still things missing. It makes me wonder. Will I ever feel whole? Will anyone? I doubt it but no one really knows. Life isn't gonna wait for me to get back on my feet...it just passes by. Life is now. It's about time I appreciate it. And that doesn't just go for me. That goes for everyone else too. Well that was sappy enough. I'm done. I'm gonna go eat some fruit, and watch the rain. :-)
But I am deffinitely not complaining. Everything is going pretty swimmingly. It seems that all of my ducks are in a row...well most of them at least. I sent my money to Simmons. It looks like I'll be going there...unless I hear from BU or BC from the waiting list shizzle. The college selection process can be infinitely nerveracking, but at this point...i know ill be happy wherever I go. EVerything will be ok. If not, I'll transfer.
But despite everything that is going well right now. I feel nervous about something...weird...awkward...unsure. I don't even know what it is but it is putting me on edge. Something in my life isn't right...isn't in a row. And once again, I'm not complaining. I am very happy and it feels that nothing can truly bring me down. BUt there is that one space in my life that is just plain old odd. Something missing.
But that's life eh? I've come a long way from my nearly suicidal posts of the past...especially earlier this year. What a mess that was. It's strange how much someone can actually grow. And yet with this sort of perfection that my life is leading to, at least in comparison, there are still things missing. It makes me wonder. Will I ever feel whole? Will anyone? I doubt it but no one really knows. Life isn't gonna wait for me to get back on my feet...it just passes by. Life is now. It's about time I appreciate it. And that doesn't just go for me. That goes for everyone else too. Well that was sappy enough. I'm done. I'm gonna go eat some fruit, and watch the rain. :-)