Back to Work
I woke up at about 4.30am this morning and had a panic attack about going back to work. I spent most of my time at work either on the verge of tears or on the verge of hitting someone.
It was a quiet day and my managers are actually being really sympathetic to my situation and are going to attempt to help me, so that's something. Amanda, who is the big boss, let me go home at 3.30pm, as it was sunny and she wanted me to chill out in the nice weather, I'm still getting paid until 5.30pm as well, so that was pretty super of her. Vince also got me to talk a little about the cause of my problems, but he didn't press me too much, as he could see I was getting upset. I don't think I can ever be totally relaxed at work, but I'm trying.
There's a works night out, on Friday 30th May, people are already asking me if I'm going, and Vince has already given me a day shift, in case I wish to go. Not too sure about that yet.
So, basically, everyone is being really nice to me at the moment, almost treating me with kid gloves, which is sweet of them. I just hope I get a little stronger soon, so I can cope with things better.
I've got an idea for the last of my prompt fics, it's a Jeremy/James fic, I love the pairing, but I find it really hard to write, which is a good thing, as it gives me something to focus on.
I sent off my Francie/Mindy fic to be betaed as well. I hope it isn't too dreadful. I'm really slacking on my writing at the moment, I have loads of ideas, but I just can't seem to write at the moment.
It was a quiet day and my managers are actually being really sympathetic to my situation and are going to attempt to help me, so that's something. Amanda, who is the big boss, let me go home at 3.30pm, as it was sunny and she wanted me to chill out in the nice weather, I'm still getting paid until 5.30pm as well, so that was pretty super of her. Vince also got me to talk a little about the cause of my problems, but he didn't press me too much, as he could see I was getting upset. I don't think I can ever be totally relaxed at work, but I'm trying.
There's a works night out, on Friday 30th May, people are already asking me if I'm going, and Vince has already given me a day shift, in case I wish to go. Not too sure about that yet.
So, basically, everyone is being really nice to me at the moment, almost treating me with kid gloves, which is sweet of them. I just hope I get a little stronger soon, so I can cope with things better.
I've got an idea for the last of my prompt fics, it's a Jeremy/James fic, I love the pairing, but I find it really hard to write, which is a good thing, as it gives me something to focus on.
I sent off my Francie/Mindy fic to be betaed as well. I hope it isn't too dreadful. I'm really slacking on my writing at the moment, I have loads of ideas, but I just can't seem to write at the moment.